Zingdad's absence

[Zingdad]

Dear friends

Quite a number of people have been sending me emails and PMs asking if I’m okay and what has happened to me. These are obviously folks that had noticed that I suddenly went quiet on the ‘net, that I had disappeared from the forums I frequent and I hadn’t updated my writings on my website. And so they wondered what was up and if I was okay. I would have preferred to reply to each individually but there were quite a few. And then I also wanted to update everyone else on this forum that might have wondered. So please forgive the “mass mail” approach, but here's the story:

First I got hit with quite an unpleasant case of the flu’. Was it swine flu? Who knows! I personally never bought into all the hype the media and TPTB have been creating around this swine flu thing. As far as I am concerned I got ill… it was miserable… then after a while I got better. End of story. But it certainly did take me down enough that I really didn’t have the energy to be writing and creating and moderating forums and so on.

THEN, just as I was getting better, I found myself putting my dreams into action! Friends these are extremely exciting times for me. My lady-love and I have been trying to get out of the city/corporate lifestyle for a while now and right now we are really busy doing it! I have negotiated the sale and transfer of my business to someone else that my largest client has approved of and am now busy doing the hand-over. I won’t bore you with the detail but this is quite a process. Months of work. But it is busy happening now and all should be completed by end December! And at the same time we are in the throes of having our yuppie city house repainted and spruced up for sale. Sell baby, sell! And not just the house but our two city-slicker cars too. Gotta go! You see, my lady love and I are taking the leap. We are getting out. We are going to buy a piece of indigenous forestland in the mountains of the Tsitsikamma region (that’s a piece of paradise here in South Africa). Once there, we are going to take the time to go on long walks in the forest. We are going to grow our own organic fruits, veggies and herbs. We are going to stare at the stars and stare into each others eyes. We are going to breathe, breathe, b-r-e-at-h-e all that fresh air. We are going to be silent enough, often enough, that we begin really LISTEN to our souls. And I am going to really get writing and creating: More music, The Ascension Papers and whatever else flows from my heart (I have SO MANY ideas!). So we are busy making all that happen right now. It means that right now there is a chaotic tumble of things to do to bring this all to fruition. And so in all the crazyness of getting the flu and then immediately having to negotiate all this I have neglected all my internet friends and the websites I love to frequent.

And I also stopped writing The Ascension Papers. But maybe that was for another reason... The writing of The Ascension Papers has been a bit like rewriting the source code of my soul. It has been THAT deeply transformative to me. And it seems I’ve really just needed to let some of all that crazy change percolate a bit. Maybe that is ultimately why I chose to allow myself to get the flu’ in the first place… sort of a forced “time out”. Could be. But the long-and-the-short of it is that I have been absent. And for this I apologise. But the good news is I am now beginning to get to the top of the pile. I have a little more time on my hands. And so last night I sat down to write again. When I last sat down to write more than a week ago I had been busy with Chapter 10. It is essentially a discussion with my spirit-guide, 8, about the nature of "evil". When last I tried to write this chapter I got a few pages in, really struggled to get a clear conversation with 8 and then, in fits and starts came to a halt. I was really struggling with it. When I sat down to it again last night I could immediately see that I had, within myself, moved past a blockage in the mean time. Being silent with myself and letting the preceding material percolate a bit had allowed me to attain a new level of understanding. So I was able to deleted the few pages I had written and start again. And then the material just flowed. I can't say when I have had such a strong and clear connection. And before I knew it, it was 3:30 in the morning and I was still writing!

I’m nearly finished with the chapter now (I think) and I have to say the content is really awesome. There were so many difficult and troubling questions still sitting with me about the nature of our world and why so much bad stuff happens and these are all in the process of being resolved for me by 8. He’s really amazing. So anyway I look forward to sharing this with anyone that' interested soon as it’s done (I'll put it up on my website and if you join there as a member you'll get an email update). But what I really wanted to say here is that my “time out” was actually well spent. It seems I really needed it to “sharpen the blade”, so to speak. And then the other thing that happened in this period was a most amazing dream/meditation. I finally got the answer to a puzzle that had been sitting with me with regard to the "children and loved ones" thread and my understanding of the "singularity event" from The Ascension Papers. Pretty dazzling stuff, really. As soon as I can I'll write it up and post it there.

To everyone that sent me kind and concerned messages, I say a heartfelt thank you. I am well. Things are good. Life is a bit overwhelming but also really fantastic. Thank you for your concern.

Love and laughter,
Zingdad

[Etheria]

Welcome back Zingdad!
Thank you for sharing your writings, they are amazing!
I understand a bit the break you took, after reading the last chapter I got anxiety attacks like I never had before! I knew they meant change and higher frequency, I recognized them as more love flowing through me . What I read has shaken some ugly old beliefs and now I am free of them
Thank you!
PS Can't wait for the next chapter!! (on it's own perfect timing...no pressure)

[Ricky]

Take your time brother, i had a feeling you had to take time out.. i mean,,, jesus its pretty intense stuff and must be taxing at times, i can wait my friend because i know it will be worth it!

i am happy you are over your flu, my mum used to say "what dont kill fattens " and i am also glad you are opening a new chapter in your life, from which i am sure you will grow, along side your veggies...

uummmmmm v e g g i e s

ricky

[UFOBelieve]

Hi Zingdad, it's really nice to hear from you again, as I too was wondering where you are, but somehow I wasn't really concerned.. in the last months I generally noticed that I am nearly always relaxed, so I somehow knew that it was alright, as everything is, always.

I wish you all the best with your transfer-stuff at work that I didn't really understand , and all the best for your moving out plans. Your plans about the house in the forest sound simply amazing! I so think it will be worth your effort! =))

See you. Love! =)

[Zingdad]

So it seems I did a repeat act of disappearing. For which I again apologise. I won't get into excuses other than to say GOOD GRIEF my life has been busy!

I took the next step in the journey I was talking about above: I sold everything, gave my business to two of my staff members and left the city. My lady-love and I moved to the forest where we are now renting a really beautiful log home. We are busy with the details of buying a piece of land here. We found a spectacular piece of paradise that is PERFECT for us. When the deal is done and the land is registered on our names we will begin to build. We are going to do it completely off-the-grid and self-sustaining. Which means a HUGE learning curve for me. I am currently gathering all kinds of info about solar panels and red-bed-filtration and such like. And also about growing a food garden completely organically. All that stuff. But we are here now and I have successfully extricated myself from the city madness.

And now I promise to be present and available here again as much as my schedule permits.

In the mean time, if you haven't been, I invite you to come and have a look at my blog which should give you a better idea of my journey generally.

The chapter (which I was talking about in the above post) did of course get finished. It ended up being by far the longest and also my favourite. It's called "What is evil" but it goes far beyond an understanding of what evil is. 8 helped me to understand some essential points about why our reality is the way it is and how to make sense of all of it. It really helped me to release my judgements and attachment to others being "wrong". Come have a read!

[Krystiluv]

Thank you so much for living your dream. It certainly helps to pave the way for the rest of us!!

[Zingdad]

Thank you for that very sweet sentiment, Krystiluv!

There is much about the choices that my lady-love and I are taking that is quite scary. Giving up all the old security blankets all at once is pretty daunting. But if I don't live my beliefs then how can I tell if they are valid? So we are feeling the fear and doing it anyway. And thus far I have to say it's turning out very well for us indeed.

[ShyloLove]

Welcome back Zingdad! I'm so happy to hear you are finally in the forest, making your dreams come true. I hope to hear all about it soon!

I am myself moving... as much as I wish it was into my Earthship Geodesic Dome ... I know some day it will be as this is just a stop over point. THANK YOU for inspiring us all to follow our dreams!


Lots of Love
Shylo