Very nice text as always, Mary.
In the last days I am feeling the strange need to feel duality again .. to think in ways that are rather dark one last time, do things to me that aren’t exactly ‘good’ (like plenty of partying), envision pain – mine (I experienced at some point) and others’, strange stuff really. 😆
I seem to intuitively feel that those things could be over soon .. I actually sometimes feel sorry for all that. Especially when I think about some loud and aggressive music I maybe won’t be listening to then because it doesn’t fit me anymore, or rather spoiled, stupid or dirty TV shows like Family Guy or South Park .. all those crap I really used to love, and still love, but feel that maybe I won’t anymore in the future. Maybe I will have the opportunity to understand the reasons why I loved all this and have understanding coming from that place.
If someone would ask me directly in the face, “Are you ready?”, to be honest, I am not so sure anymore that I would emphatically shout “YES!!” anymore like I was 4 or 5 weeks ago. But maybe that’s a good sign, who knows. 😆
Love to all of you!! =)
