Re: Re: David’s Guidance

[denise]

David,

I thought there are only three of us reading…you mean there’s more? Maybe it’s only us. No? There are others who don’t want to post? I think I understand why.

First you have to register. Give them your email address (what about spam…?) Pick screen name. (Hmmm…what should I call myself?) Then they check to be sure it’s a unique name (one of a kind? of course I am!) And then the dreaded password. What will I remember? It requires numbers and letters in BoTh CAPITAL and also lower case letters aLL m1xEd uP! (Shit how will I remember that? Usually I dont. mine’s been reset 3 times.) When you sign on with your password it takes you to a blank screen, where you have to click to go to the index page and then forums and find David’s guidance. It’s under HEALTH. (Health?? Except for the one FAT post, I have absolutely NO idea why!)

Me? I like to click the link on Joanie’s (or Mel’s) emails. Especally if I’m on my smart phone. It takes me right to the page. I read all the new posts and hit “post reply.” THAT”S where they ask me for my password, and IF I remember it AND put it in correctly, which honestly isnt often, OOPS! Now I have to go back to the blank page at the beginning, back to the index and to the Davids guidance and click page 16 where we are now. Just to reply.

OK? So now you know why its a little harder than you think to post. Easy for you to say…All YOU have to do is talk to Joanie and SHE does all the work!

When I read your posts I sometimes feel completely overwhelmed. I need to read through it a few times, digest it, then wait til I am in the right frame of mind to answer. Sometimes you hit a nerve. You say I am sad. You say I am fat and need to stop eating. You say I need to TALK to people I am fighting with??? Make amends. UGH I dont like that, it’s too hard! Maybe I’m not speaking to certain people for really good reasons. (ok so maybe I should and I could but I’m scared to pick up the phone.) You say you want me to draw a picture of my life. I’m too scared. What if I quit my job and start designing greeting cards, what if I can’t pay my mortgage? You say the end is near, we are all going to go through some kind of craziness that makes us nervous about our future and our worthiness and our families and friends and oh nooooo what should we do about it?

When I finally hit “post reply” and start writing, I get so nervous. What should I say? How should I say it? I dont want to piss off the angels in heaven, especially not Mary Mother of God whose got my highest respect and devotion?? Jesus who died for my sins wants to hear me complain??? I think not. Nobody wants to hear about my personal problems. I am just learning, what if I sound stupid and uneducated? OK I am educated but not ENLIGHTENED! Me and my petty boring life of work and kids and dogs and food. So there it is…

Here’s the worst part, when I write too long I can’t see the bottom of the box where I am typing so I can’t even edit it!

So stop writing you say? OK I will do you the favor. Just thought I would tell you my truth from a mere mortal perspective. But someday if you want to talk to me direct I will try to hear you!

All my love and respect and if you need any more help understanding I will be happy to help! Keep on writing Joanie!

Love
Denise