David,
I think everybody FEELS young. Bodies age, minds/spirits don’t. Most of my friends are essentially the same as in high school. We wonder where the years have gone. I feel most young when I am in love. I feel most old when I am trudging through things I hate (like getting up for work on Monday mornings.)
Yesterday we went to the cemetary for a historical tour. Every October the historical society in my town has actors pretend to be certain dead people in the museum, and people walk by candlelight (and flashlights if you bring one) from table to table “meeting” these people and seeing pictures and artifacts from their lives and times. It is very cool and we do it every year.
My 12 year old Jessica started asking me questions about her dead grandparents (my husbands parents) and i told her about it. We started to talk more about death and I told her I would rather be creamated. She started to cry “I dont want to talk about it anymore, I dont want to talk anymore.” She was so sad and scared all night. I didnt know what to say. I tried to explain about death not being the end but she wouldnt listen to any more. WHAT should I have said to make her feel better???
I know that if she doesn’t go to the light, and if I can’t get her to go, then I would stay behind too because I love her so much and she needs me. And I need her. She’s the love of my life. How can I teach her more? What can/should I teach her?
My husband rejects religion and spirituality of all kinds, and though we started out in the Roman Catholic church, some “Holier than thou” people from our church really turned me OFF to going, and I never fell in love with the new church, and nobody in my family would come with me anymore as they got older, so we all stopped going. Sometimes I watch it on TV but most times I just read and think and, as you know, I believe the pieces I believe now and no more.
Thanks.
Denise
