Thank you all so much for all the love and light. I am really trying to let it all penetrate and sink in.
Thankfully, I feel I have been able to move on and finally let go of that past love and it’s hurts. You all really helped me in our conversation several months ago.
I feel my fear and darkness stem from other areas.
As of several weeks ago I was struggling with not being able to “fix” or control my sick fathers unhappiness and worries. I feel
responsibility for his happiness and protection and am not able to control his environment as I would wish, and this weighs on me.
During this time of vulnerability I came accross a very sick family in my work two weeks ago. This family, espeically their son has tramautized me. This child had malicioiusness in his eyes and taunted to hurt me throughout the session in their home. I have felt fearful ever since my session in their home and think of them constantly. I feel overwhelmed by having to see them again which is what my supervisor is requesting. This has lead me to slowly becoming more and more sick and unsure of myself.
For two weeks I have no appetite and struggle to eat, have lost weight and in the past several days have insomnia. I am so scared for my health and have called out from work due to feeling so weak and overwhelmed. I feel I am in a downwared spiral that
will never end and wish to quit my job but we can not afford it. I don’t know what to do.
I have started on anxiety/depression medication but it has not kicked in yet. I yearn for a good nights sleep.
I feel so scared and lost.
Please send some guidance to help llight my way.
I am so appreciative.
