Re: Re: David’s Guidance

[Bigfeet E]

Hi everyone,

Wasn’t aware that a number of posts allready came to pass, and just found out last evening. I had subscribed this thread, but no further notice came tru after 1 post.
Guess that doesn’t work to good… anyway i’m glad to see what’s bin written.

Well ; where to start…
First of all i wasn’t really looking to be healed persé. More like : Hey wow, a chance to connect 1 on 1 with wiseness on a equal basis. Oppertunity – Bling Bling – does’nt come around that easely.
I believe my first initative to speak out here was the trigger of remembrance of my own experience regarding of what i spoke about, and the questions that still lingered with me about the way this experience came to be, in a way that it wasn’t confirmed from another point of view that’s currently out of my reach … sort of speak. A ‘real’ talk in depth for a change, not lingering on chitchat superfacial nonsence or creating more mist where the point is to clear the mist. My Aries-side craves this straightforwardness to the core.

Ofcourse i made my own trail of thoughts and possible realisations, and made my peace with the most fitting reason or goal that went behind it.
But then earlier in this topic it was asked by John from where David are residing & the answer was kinda from a different density/dimension wich interconnects & are clearly more consciously accessable for them as for us folks here in 3d/3D . As i am not smoking marihuana anymore, my own access to those realms has deminisched greatly & i do however kinda miss the experiencial benefits.
The impact however of sudden unexpected ‘clear’ speach blew me over. As i said, you can resemble it with putting your ear to a soundbox when first you could difirentiate voices lower than whispers, when suddenly someone cranked open the volume 😆 – together with the ‘pull-up’ torsional/tunneling/travelling sensation – it was quit a unexpected freak out moment at the time.
Never felt it was by my own doing, that i got a little help there , a beam me up sorta thing … although i know i’ve must have bin receptive in order to make it work.

for it is here you may find that the reason you took time to speak was for good reasons you had at that time.

So i guess that worked back on the subconsious level then, and now you ask me to spill the beans . (grrrr, damn it) 🙂
Well let me tell you i’m usually not that keen on blatantly waving my old scars anymore, as this rather open method hasn’t served me well amongst ‘others’.
However, i feel that you can be trusted so that sets me more at ease. Still it doesn’t come in a comfortable pace, wich is only my own conditioning – i know –

Let me just stop beating around the bush here…
My ‘problem’ was/is with my way to express my love for females in a mating manner. It is such a delicate situation that requires the gloves of love/desire/involvement/looking-tru-their-foggy-masks, and i project(ed) an image on how i feel how i want it to be (don’t we all?). Thus so in a manner that comes spontaneously/naturely/exitingly etc. I have come to understand that this is one of my hardest tasks to learn, and sometimes even wonder if this is a road i’m supposed to take or even still want to take it. I’m slowly coming to age allready & quit frankly, my excavations have the nack to be unfortunate due to either my own self-sabotage or not finding who i seek. All sorts of complications from all sorts of sources. Firstly i seek my own balance ofcourse and learned tru heartache as bin said … ‘s bin a good teacher yeah, but that hasn’t cut it to the real deal yet.

Safe to say, i’m not the kind of guy that wants to learn tru going butterflying from 1 flower to another, that’s just not me, with respect to those who can.
But now i’ve come to the position that it becomes harder & harder to achieve the lovers game, and the intensive yearning is also fading with time. It all travels in phases, and most times i’m either to late or unaware . All factors to be recond with, i pull the shortest straw.
I’m not keen to give it my attention nor energy anymore & just keep going the way i choose to direct most possible fruitionly by my own sence of intuition.
The door is still open, but there’s nobody on the other side. Can’t blame anyone really, as there’s none to blame. I’ve bin told by a soul who call’s himself master Morya that i’ve had much help allready & i believe him. I was just not aware nor witted enough to pick up the trail. Que serra, serra – What ever will be, will be … Just feel alienated with it all & tend to keep it on an imaginationlevel.

OK. So, Erik. How about doing us a small favor? Take a nap. See whether we are in a dream. See if we show our faces or guises or masks in shape, form, laughter, senses — however we might come over to meet you

Hmmm, that’s a bit out of my reach, my friend. I have practicly no awareness in/of my dreams.Let hold identifying others projections from mine. The only things i can recall is when i just wake up & usually that’s little to nothing unless it was a very vivid dream, wich are rarely. I do practice trying to recall the ‘message’ from time to time, but i must say i have no time to linger much on them. As having to wake up early in my workingschedule, i kinda break my natural sleepsequence every time, and have to get ready for my ‘other’ time. Yes, i don’t really call it ‘my’ time – working for money – and that’s why i try to suck as much as possible out of my ‘free’ time, wich is mine to do as i please. I’m aware that in this way i weary myself to much as is within healthy scales, but it is a sacrifice (lol) i gladly pay sometimes. The toxication on regular bases by chemtrails does’nt help either …
I’m used to living with pains and aches and numdnesses. I was born with it. Guess conditioned a little it and tend to ignore certain warningsigns. It sets the pace to overcome it, over & over again. Think i would even feel strange if it wasn’t anymore. Hah, that’s another thing in my so called love-live. I don’t know any other way & would be & am) very unsettled if i came to live with someone besides my own.

I see in ‘the first of the litter’ post you’ve allready pointed out lot wich with i totally agree.
I try to live that way as much as i can, and aproach love in a more unconditional fashion.
One would believe it would answer the love question in a way of compagnions/lovers, but in this society no such luck … yet.
Most are so sticked on the conditional way of love, with all kinds of (to me) silly rules & unspoken predetermined roles to comply, that it seems there’s no room for spontaneity anymore.
I feel if when it all comes around to compromise, the pureness has bin tainted & the outcome is allready determined that way.
Is it not so that this unables the very dynamic of freedom ? Or am i fleeing from my shadow this way ?
I thought that being the light itself would not cast my shadow anymore, am i right ? Ofcourse “saying it & doing it” have to be the same, otherwise there’s no point in saying it. 😆

OK, enough of me …
Let me just say that i’ll take your advisements in honest considerations and i feel privileged with your presence, meaning all of you !!!
Love talking to you,Joanie/David/The Ones/”Her”…(refering to Holy Spirit/Kundalini … just guessing ?)/My Guide(Terna?) and … 😀

@John wrote:

I have thought long and hard on your advise and yes you are correct these things are helpful but I’m afraid much beyond my ability to pay

Damn, sorry to hear that , John.
Maybe the cheap ones are not availeble to your area, usually they are the most sinsere .
Their are ofcourse a number of other methods you can pick up, and combine. Point is that you can learn from many ways and integrate to create your own ‘style’.
That is inevitably , imo , the way to progress.
I’m sure that means will come your way, that you’ll pick up on them – as like the beautifull service presented here by Joanie & David & …- if you put the intention out.
Law of attraction, some call it. There ‘s lots of yoga’s out there, and i tried a few myself, so glad that i did.
There was a point in time the doctor thought i was almost ripe for a wheelchair, his words. But grabbing the bull by the horns myself took me out of that supposed fate.
May providence be your mate … m8.
😉

And now i really must have my dinner i promissed myself to eat … 3 hours ago.
Cheers y’all.

Virginfeet Erik
😆