Re: Re: David’s Guidance

[Joanie]

Dear David and The Others,

Thank you for your invitation to join in this discussion. You ask me, “Do you love the present drama you’re in? … we know her drama is complex.”

Do I laugh, cry, or both? I know very well that I planned many dramas before I incarnated here. I know, and have been told by You that my spirit craves the highest of challenges. It is in the physical that I feel quite removed from this perspective — the one of enjoying drama and complex situations. My higher self must have sung all my life, as it’s been fraught with one obstacle or another. The 3D Joanie does not sing when she’s in the midst of challenges.

I accept obstacles, I understand why they are there, I seek to overcome them, I search for meaning or lessons at every turn. You ask, though, about enjoyment. No. I do not enjoy pain, nor do I enjoy confusion, doubt, sadness, misunderstandings, etc.

The play I created in this lifetime is surely a two-part Oprah episode, or one that would become a cult following on the Indie scene. The observer could learn a lot. It’s Joanie, the one carrying the suitcase — the baggage — that’s a bit weary.

So, I’ve done the therapy route years ago, as many therapists do. Did massive amounts of forgiveness work. I’ve done healings on myself to release much in the way of unnecessary stuff hidden in corners from this life, as well as those past.

Despite my having worked to lighten my load, I feel worn out. When I face an obstacle at this point in my life, it seems to sting just a bit more. I ask, “OK. Why now? Haven’t I been through enough?”

My question seems to be this, “When do You all come in and create situations independent of my creations, or those others have co-created with me?” When things don’t seem to make sense, I ask myself, “I could not have confounded what was going well. I believe The Ones ‘played’ for some Higher reason for me to learn something.”

This is where I get stuck, angry and confused.

With Love,

Joanie, The One Who Sits, Writes, Learns, Loves — All To Give Others Lessons So They May Grow, Too