Re: Re: David’s Guidance

[julie]

Hello This is Dorlie
by the way I have tried several times to register under my own name and continue to have errors but will continue to try so I will not confuse things :/
(thank you Julie!)

Thank you so much Joanie, and David, and so much THANKS to you John.
I am so moved and impressed of how you cared for your mother. I pray and work toward strength to even give positive time to my father and not feel drained (and sad).

Therapy is uncovering many interesting things, including a new feeling of being cross with my father for past and current selfishness. I belive the emotions, memories and awareness are a process I need to go through to come out better prepared, confidant and giving on the other side.
Julie my sister has been a HUGE monumental help for becoming aware of my guilt and anger and letting me know things and I am “okay”.
I love you so much Jul.
I am on anxiety/depression medication and sleep meds. I plan to begin to come off the sleep meds gradually sometime soon.
I continue to struggle daily but instead of from a deep dark hole I am more like standing on the ground that at times will tremble. I get a little scared about the road ahead but know there are hands near by that I can reach out to when I want to go into the fetal position. And I am also trying to accept it is okay to feel difficult feelings for them to be able to pass on through.
I close my eyes and imagine crystals on and around me 🙂 I love this image, thank you Joanie and friends.
You are all so AMAZING and I tearfully (in gratitude) want to give you all a big tight hug.
Thank you so much for being here for me.
I continue on my journey trying to enjoy and appreciate more around me. I work toward holding my hand out for my dad to take and to point out the beautiful things to him too (without trying to carry all his weight)
If I should trip and fall I will try not to punish myself.
Practice makes better, right?
Lots and lots of love,
Dorlie