Dear David,
I feel terrible tonight. My husband and I went out in New Brunswick to the theater. While we were walking in the rain, we passed a lady who asked us for a dollar. My husband kept walking and so did I. Not really because I didnt want to give her money but because stopping and opening up my purse would have been too difficult and we didnt have an umbrella and wanted to get out of the rain. And because I had no ide if I had any money on me or how much I had. And because that sort of thing happens quite often in cities, and everybody says dont give them money.
The lady had blond hair, a green coat, a smooth nice face, and the saddest eyes I ever saw. Those eyes haunted me for the rest of the evening. Even now. After we got pizza I went outside to look for her but I didnt see her. I wished I had given her a $20.
During the show I thought about that lady and I prayed that God would get her some money somehow. I prayed that she would be taken care of but still I felt I neglected my responsibility. So after the show, a lady approached me at my car and begged me for 7.75 to get on the train. She said her mom was in JFK hospital and she walked from there. Of course I didnt believe her, thats a good 5-10 miles away. And I told her I didnt believe her. She had a wrinkled weathered face, and I didnt even feel nearly as badly for her as I did the other lady but I sat in our car and reached into my waller and pulled out exactly $8. I only did it because I felt bad about the other one with the sad eyes.
Will you please ask the angels to take care of the lady with the sad eyes tonight? And the other one too who I gave the $8, and every other person out there who is desperate or homeless and hungry.
Love
Denise
PS I also ate meat on a Friday in Lent 🙁 now which is really the worse sin? I think it was the lady.
