Dear David,
Wow, I actually have tears in my eyes —tears of joy — because no matter how many times I have heard the stories of the crucifixion of Jesus there was never once a time when I hadn’t wished I could have changed the outcome. I ALWAYS wanted Jesus to LIVE. And am so glad he did. I wish I could know the story of his life AFTER the resurrection. They say he died to bring us closer to God, but I believe he LIVED to bring us to God! He is the light and the role model and the love of God incarnate and I will still and forevermore call him God’s son, as he is, was and always will be. I have allowed Jesus to console my sadness, dry my tears, and calm me when I am afraid, all I need to know is that he is beside me and I am well.
So as much as I claim to dislike bits and pieces of organized religion, I DO love God, adore Jesus, pray rosaries to Mother Mary, summon angels, and respect the teachings of the masters. I feel that I am spiritual, the love in my heart is pure, but yes I do pick what resonantes with me and discard what I do not. Hence my rejection of satan and hell but my absolute belief in heaven and Christ. And my disregard of the various rules and fictions created to control the masses.
I also want to tell you, though you must already know, that I LOVE it so much when you talk to me, I can FEEL your love jumping right through the pages to my heart and it brings me to tears. Although I never feel I deserve to have Jesus speak to me or heal me, I know he DID and I know he loves me and I know that the other side of this physical life can be nothing but beautiful. Thank you.
My love and blessings and thanks to you always
Denise
