I talk to my body: balancing and healing

[Alusa]

I thought I would introduce my experience here, I haven’t heard of anyone else working with themselves this way, I am not sure exactly what to call this “system” its something thats kinda developed over time and its worked a great deal for me. I would view this as telepathic but I think if one spends a lot of time paying attention to their body they can find different ways to communicate.

In my experience all energy has conciousness, some more sentient than others, it just depend on what aspect of it you wanna talk to. Are you going to talk to a swarm of bees, a worker or the queen?

I have always been a reflective sort of person, I would always search for how I felt, and my views on things, I would always ask myself questions while soul-searching, eventually I started getting answers back from myself, like parts/information and stuff, levels of it I was not conscious of. Eventually I noticed that different sorts of answers came from different aspects of myself and my body, depending on the issue and what questions I would ask I could trace a problem back to the “source.”

Have you ever been divided on an issue? Or felt resistance in doing something, or making a decision? Have you ever reacted some way and not known why? Are you always fighting yourself? Well, you also have many aspects of conciousness, and when that happens, you really aren’t all on the same page. I have found I can go talk with those specific aspects, find their views, tell them mine and work something out, or tell them why certain mindsets/behaviors are not healthy, but its also part of you, you literally have to try to make an effort and feel it out from both sides, there is no point in doing this if you cant be honest with yourself, lip service wont solve problems.

I have had people do or say things and was surprised I was offended, I would talk to my ego, and it would have a different viewpoint, something the person said or did may have reminded it of a past pain issue or scar. I ask questions, find out why it feels that way, what caused the problem, if there are deeper past issues I keep digging till I get all the information, then I start to heal. I embrace that part of myself, comfort it, and explain why what it’s doing isn’t healthy, or I will give it the attention it needs, if you ignore aspects of yourself sometimes they will act out or develop bad habbits/tendencies. After I find out whats wrong, I talk to that aspect of myself, heal and we both come to a new unified stance.

My heart doesn’t think much, it just feels, it can think from an emotional perspective. I have sometimes formed unhealthy emotional attachments to people, given too much of myself away. I have talked to my heart chakra, discussed all the problems involved, we agree on a new stance. In this case it would be that I need to be stronger in myself, love myself and etc so I am not as emotionally needy. If there are links to someone in an unhealthy way, or that I am ending a relationship/friendship with that I don’t want there, I let my heart know I don’t want them there and why, try to solve any unhealthy emotional addictions, then I cut them, if I don’t solve the issues first the heart will just want them again and the link will reform.

I used to want to communicate with my subconscious, but I don’t always have the best schedule, or time to practice things like dream recall, I am lucky if I even remember my dreams! And things are hard because it wants to communicate through abstracts and symboligy, I don’t always have time for that. So I ended up having a long conversation with my subconscious about what was practical and what wasn’t how I wanted it to communicate with me. I find out that the subconscious language is thought abstracts thats the basis of how it thinks, they are large concepts that are interpreted in dreams, visions and altered states of conciousness. I’ve even learned how to read some of the simple thought abstracts. Eventually I got it to where it telepathically talks to me just like any other part, though sometimes it still does use dreams to communicate. It saves a lot of time.

I found out I can talk to any chakras, ego, body consciousness, and subconscious. Any issues I have I can usually go to the relevant part of myself to work with and solve, or I can go to a relevant part of myself and ask it questions on things it specializes in, they often have knowledge I am not aware of. Life is so much easier when you are a unified self, when all of you is on the same page with one stance. Fighting with yourself is a big waste of vital time and energy. I talk to myself all the time and the more I do it the easier and more fluid it gets. Would this be considered MPD? I don’t know xD but you will never get me to admit I hear different sub-personas/voices in my head if you get me in a room with a shrink. 😆

[opalescent]

Awesome, Alusa.

Here’s part of an email I sent someone once about “time traveling” back to childhood and gaining integration:

“… Another theme is to see a long dark hallway with doors along each wall. I usually envisage a still, cobwebby kind of place. Behind one of the doors you can hear a child sobbing. Look at the door. What does it look like? Is there anything on it, like a number, knocker, etc? Do you knock? Do you turn the doorknob? Open the door. What do you see? Who do you see? What is happening? (Sometimes the information is quite harrowing, so it’s important to be able to maintain a gentle presence of support.) Meet the child self. What is he/she feeling? How can you feel love, bringing in the perspective and understanding of the adult self, such that sharing that love allows the child to release hold of the anger, rage, resentment, loneliness, feelings of being unloved, unwanted, misunderstood, etc? You see how this gets to root causes! When you’re ready, hold hands with the child and let him or her lead you to the door. Leave the room, look at each other, embrace, allow the child to become subsumed into the present-day adult self. This is integration of a splinter of soul which had gotten stuck in time.”

There are so many ways to wholeness, it’s jes’ beyootiful!

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