[denise]

David,

I thought there are only three of us reading…you mean there’s more? Maybe it’s only us. No? There are others who don’t want to post? I think I understand why.

First you have to register. Give them your email address (what about spam…?) Pick screen name. (Hmmm…what should I call myself?) Then they check to be sure it’s a unique name (one of a kind? of course I am!) And then the dreaded password. What will I remember? It requires numbers and letters in BoTh CAPITAL and also lower case letters aLL m1xEd uP! (Shit how will I remember that? Usually I dont. mine’s been reset 3 times.) When you sign on with your password it takes you to a blank screen, where you have to click to go to the index page and then forums and find David’s guidance. It’s under HEALTH. (Health?? Except for the one FAT post, I have absolutely NO idea why!)

Me? I like to click the link on Joanie’s (or Mel’s) emails. Especally if I’m on my smart phone. It takes me right to the page. I read all the new posts and hit “post reply.” THAT”S where they ask me for my password, and IF I remember it AND put it in correctly, which honestly isnt often, OOPS! Now I have to go back to the blank page at the beginning, back to the index and to the Davids guidance and click page 16 where we are now. Just to reply.

OK? So now you know why its a little harder than you think to post. Easy for you to say…All YOU have to do is talk to Joanie and SHE does all the work!

When I read your posts I sometimes feel completely overwhelmed. I need to read through it a few times, digest it, then wait til I am in the right frame of mind to answer. Sometimes you hit a nerve. You say I am sad. You say I am fat and need to stop eating. You say I need to TALK to people I am fighting with??? Make amends. UGH I dont like that, it’s too hard! Maybe I’m not speaking to certain people for really good reasons. (ok so maybe I should and I could but I’m scared to pick up the phone.) You say you want me to draw a picture of my life. I’m too scared. What if I quit my job and start designing greeting cards, what if I can’t pay my mortgage? You say the end is near, we are all going to go through some kind of craziness that makes us nervous about our future and our worthiness and our families and friends and oh nooooo what should we do about it?

When I finally hit “post reply” and start writing, I get so nervous. What should I say? How should I say it? I dont want to piss off the angels in heaven, especially not Mary Mother of God whose got my highest respect and devotion?? Jesus who died for my sins wants to hear me complain??? I think not. Nobody wants to hear about my personal problems. I am just learning, what if I sound stupid and uneducated? OK I am educated but not ENLIGHTENED! Me and my petty boring life of work and kids and dogs and food. So there it is…

Here’s the worst part, when I write too long I can’t see the bottom of the box where I am typing so I can’t even edit it!

So stop writing you say? OK I will do you the favor. Just thought I would tell you my truth from a mere mortal perspective. But someday if you want to talk to me direct I will try to hear you!

All my love and respect and if you need any more help understanding I will be happy to help! Keep on writing Joanie!

Love
Denise

[denise]

David and Joanie,

Please keep writing. I like to read your posts (even on my smart phone, even when I cannot reply because my password needs a reset.) Sometimes it seems like you are playing games with us, but I enjoy the metaphor. The last post sounds very similar to the Law of Attraction. I would like to create a picture of my life that I love. As you know I am not there yet.

One of the things I realized this weekend is that I am not creating my picture yet. First I need to go to work, or cook dinner, or feed the dogs, etc. So many “have to’s” then I am stressed out trying to do too many things that I dont want to and I reward myself using food or wine or some stupid video games or something just to feel a little stress relief. I am a little bit afraid to start painting that picture because I am not sure what I want it to look like. Should I start with my favorite color purple? But most of the sky is blue, and the grass is green. So I draw those first and never have time to draw my sweet beautiful lilacs… And also, what happens if I draw the picture and then it turns out I don’t like it after all?

The other thing that I realized is that I am always doing things I HAVE to do, sometimes things I WANT to do, but most often I find myself doing things that OTHER people want me to do. I keep finding myself doing things I don’t really want to do in order to please (or not disappoint) others. You keep telling me we all choose for ourselves. But I have a family to take care of, and children who are not old enough to do all their choosing. (How do I teach them how to choose the right things?) Its a tough balance. I would like to have more time to do what I want to do. How can I free up more time for ME? And what wonderful things will I do when I have the time???

Funny it’s not just my family. I also feel obligated to please other people, some I dont really care about, doing things I don’t want, things that don’t make me happy, and I dont know how to stop. Is that ego? Low self confidence? Training? Why can’t I just say no? Go away, leave me alone? Because positive attention makes me feel like I am OK. So I am like a trained seal, I do what they want and they throw me a fish and I really dont ever have a chance to draw my picture!

Now you say the time is coming when we need to choose. So should I even bother? Really if time’s almost up, is it too late to pick up the canvas???

OK. Sounding pretty frustrated arent I? Sorry. I have many good things in my life too, really. I feel so much happier when I am grateful for all my blessings. So now we focus on the good things.

Thank you for listening. Thank you for Joanie. Thank you for the words you send that help me to see the light, and thank you for your help and guidance and love. (And for nice soft feather pillows when I am feeling tired.) Good night.

Denise

[denise]

David

You said to me: “You are here to see that the ones who go to Light free themselves from the sorrow they carry and wish this liberation of the soul. You are here to see others cry when the moment arrives.” I think I would like to be helpful and comforting to people. I will see that as a challenge and an honor. How will I go about finding these people and what mode will I be doing this work? Sounds like I need to be ready!

I once read this book by Betty J Eadie about her visit to heaven, and the need for WAVES (Warring Angel Volunteers on Earth) who help to pray to save this world. Is that related to what you are talking about?

I have been looking for my purpose, my mission so that I can follow the right path. Please prepare me for what lies ahead. And support me in my mission so I can be successful at it. Where shall I begin?

Love and Light,
Denise

[denise]

Dear David,

It is not fun to hear this from you. I find these words a little bit confusing and scary. The first thing I think of is how to protect my family, my children and my dogs… Unfortunately I have been a bit lax on their religious education in recent years. My husband has no interest in spirituality at all. So what do we do to protect and help the ones we love?

I am Christian, but currently on a spiritual journey and finding myself dabbling in all sorts of theories brought forward by psychics and NDE visits to heaven and healers and writers like Joanie and the Hicks, and such, trying to figure out whats what. How ironic it would be to find out that Jesus is where it was at all along and I turned to explore other answers.

But I dont understand some of your logic. It would seem to me that there is NO person who is ALL Dark or ALL Light. Everybody has love and light in them and also bad feelings like hate/dislike, anger, jealousy, etc. How can you label somebody dark or light? We are all shades of gray. Please explain more.

Some children you say are sad and have found hate, sometimes it is because they feel rejection, valid or not, and hide their pain behind hate. Sometimes they just want attention, to be different, to be noticed. But society is strange, people want somebody to blame, to sue, to complain about, because it makes them feel superior, it feeds their ego. Many kids do not see how much they are loved because they choose not to see it. They prefer teen drama and love the attention of having people feel sorry for them so they make up stories of woe, some even believe it, just because it gives them the spotlight of their peers. I know many like this.

My favorite sentence, “A Peace so beautiful that you cry when your heart opens.” I would love to feel that but I am not ready yet to go back. I will protect the ones I love in any way I can, so please please tell me how.

THANK you for your advice and for Joanie and for preparing us for these events. Send millions of angels to help us.
Much love and light.
Denise

[denise]

Dear David,

I am not sad. All is well. I am well, my family is well, and I have so many wonderful people and things in my life to be grateful for. I am so blessed.

My change in direction is because I want to find an fulfill my lifes purpose (and work at home near my daughter.) Problem is there are so many things I am good at, I just couldnt decide which one to pursue further (giggle) and the guts/time/confidence to pursue them. As I search I love to learn and to grow. I know that when I find the right path, abundance in all things will be the result. You have told me so, Joanie has told me so, and so have the angels. I am convinced, just need to find the right path.

I have always loved books and enjoy writing encouragement. I just can’t decide what mode. Greeting cards are my top choice, because I love to encourage people. I like poetry. Music/a song? Maybe. A biography of Joanie? I wish I had her divine inspiration she has so it would all be crystal clear. Do you have any ideas for me? I thought your message about helping to comfort sadness was a push in the direction of an inspirational book or cards. I need an artist or photographer to help with the pictures (every idea has a “but” that I need to overcome.)

OK so I understand that the “events” will only harm us if we allow it. Is that correct?

Please tell me WHO is Cathy? I have always used that name, Cathy or Catherine, when I was a child, in my stories. And Julie. But I never knew why. More please?

Sorry if this is too personal. Maybe I should be writing for the good of all, but in the end so it will be.

Love and a million thanks for your words and guidance.
Denise

[denise]

Thank you David, and Joanie, for giving me things to think about. I agree. We all walk around with too much sadness. Please tell us what can help us come alive again with joy? I would also like to hear more about the “Main Event” you are talking about. Much love, Denise

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