[julie]

Re: David’s Guidance

Dear John,
Thank you for your support, words and advice! They gave me a wonderful visual that I see and use easily, thank you! Thank you also for the kind words to my sister and for the thoughts you send her.
Love to you and yours,
Julie
May I ask, David, why do you say : “No people see horror in the way we say you experienced it.”? Why did I experience it that way? Was that part of my plan? Did I want to grow in such a way that I placed many horrors in my path? I see you say you removed the horrors. Thank you!
Yes, the idea of teaching children is very pleasurable to me. I enjoy teaching. I wish I could remember…is there a way I can remember? Why is the veil so low over my eyes? Can I move it up a bit?

I am so, so grateful to Joanie. I know she knows I love her very much as well. We consider her part of our family and not only my heart is wide open to her and Michael, But my little Earthly home as well!

Thank you, David, Mother Mary, and Mary Magdalena I am so very happy (and thrilled!!!) to have you in my life. Until next time…..
All my love,
Julisa
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[julie]

Dear John,
Thank you for your support, words and advice! They gave me a wonderful visual that I see and use easily, thank you! Thank you also for the kind words to my sister and for the thoughts you send her.
Love to you and yours,
Julie

Hello David, Mary, Mother of God, Mary, Queen of Love and the loving troop of Divine beings who are here with so much support and guidance!
Thank you for blessing me with your wisdom and words. Thank you for you love and support for my sister as well. I am so happy she is here and now knows you are here with her as well.

I have started the homeopathic seratonin and am happy to focus now on healing myself and resting and think happily of the time when I might be able to help heal others (not sure if this is my purpose, but I would like it to be). I was wondering…why is it my job to be with Lainy?

May I ask, David, why do you say : “No people see horror in the way we say you experienced it.”? Why did I experience it that way? Was that part of my plan? Did I want to grow in such a way that I placed many horrors in my path? I see you say you removed the horrors. Thank you!
Yes, the idea of teaching children is very pleasurable to me. I enjoy teaching. I wish I could remember…is there a way I can remember? Why is the veil so low over my eyes? Can I move it up a bit? To teach about Love, ah that is magnificent. Love makes the world go round…Love heals all wounds…A child can soar to sights unknown as long as they have love….Love is the always the answer. 😀

Beloved Mary, thank you for your guidance. You say that I “need slow to repeat all that happened in past lives so You heal”. How do I repeat all that happened? Through sessions? Is this something I will be able to see/hear once I have healed myself a bit more? Should I do this through meditation? I love the saying you told me. Thank you. I think of golden, glittery hotpants and it makes me smile..

I was going to ask about Lama Rinpoche’s statement: “The purpose of my having been born human is to eliminate the suffering of other sentient beings and to bring them happiness. The purpose of my human life is to serve others, to use myself for others….” because it is exactly how I feel about myself/my life and it truly resonates with me. But, I think I just realized something…It seems like it is very easy for me to give others what they need…time, love, efforts, energy. But, not so easy for me to know when to stop/reserve some for myself in order to take care of myself. Its not that I don’t want to think of myself, I just forget, I love them so much and want to help so badly that I just don’t think of myself much until later. Maybe this my pattern?….something happens, someone needs help and I give everything I have. But I just noticed, that as soon as they are o.k., then I am worn out or sick. I guess it is not so much what I give, but the fact that I do not yet know how/when to replenish. Do I understand correctly that until I learn how to take care of myself and fill myself up with love and light, I can not serve God, the world the way I want to? To really help others, I must be full… of love and light and strength. There is a flow that I guess I have not been using…I think I give what I have and then look to take care of myself once I am already sick. Maybe once I heal and open myself freely to the light/love I am given and the light/love I have inside, then I will be full and able to give freely and completely without hurting myself. Is this right? I feel like something “clicked”, so I hope this is at least somewhere on the path. “May the divine energy flow through me and heal us all for our highest and best”. Yes?? If yes, then how? 😉

I am so, so grateful to Joanie. I know she knows I love her very much as well. We consider her part of our family and not only my heart is wide open to her and Michael, But my little Earthly home as well!

I look forward to meeting the fairies you spoke of and us all sitting down to a cookie buffet! 😆

There is so much more that I wanted to say, but I think this is enough for now. I will try and write again soon.

Thank you, David, Mother Mary, and Mary Magdalena my heart sings when I read your words. I love you very much and am so very happy (and thrilled!!!) to have you in my life. Until next time…..
All my love,
Julisa

[julie]

This is Dorlie
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you Joanie and all others for your love and positive engery, I can FINALLY FEEL it!
Some progress, I went to psychiatrist yesterday and I started a new medication, Pristiq, lets see if we can be friends for a while.
I also saw a therapist. I can tell she is wise and very loving and she gave me a big hug at the end of the session.
She told me I am carrying “helplessness” with me since I was a child. I belive this is true. I also know you are right, I need my energy to “fix” heal myself, my soul and let my dad take his own path, no matter how much it hurts him.
What really scares me is that my father is scared. He is scared to suffer, to be left in a bed debilitated and waiting to die when his Parkinson’s continues, as it will. I will work on my relationship with my father and my letting go of responsibility to his happiness in therapy because it drains me as my sister helped me to understand. As of now I must rest and take a break from all draining and negative energies, which includes my dear papito.
Today I have had several hours of more openness in my mind and heart, i hope it lasts but need to also accept the disease passing through. As of now this has been a really great break from the darkness.
A school friend texted me today and told me she will recommend me for the next openning at the Therapeutic Miccosukee Treatment Center. I would LOVE that and have always felt an affinity to Native American people, my sister and I are about 1/18th Cheyenne 😉
We will see what happens. I can see help has been flowing toward me in so many ways, inlaws inviting me over, a bit of humor I had yesterday, my cat coming and sleeping/purring on my chest, my friends/family calling, my sister forcing me off my sofa and onto the balcony, my awesome husbands hugs, and YOU!!! Thank you so much for your time, I look so forward to becoming more open and healthy!
Lots of LOOOVE!
Dorlie

[julie]

Hello Joanie and everyone else who is present and listening,
This is Dorlie.
Thank you for your time and responses.
My father does love creamcheese on toast and I will continue to try to give him love and attention without feeling ressponsible. this is a tough one to work through. my sister would like to buy the comforter 😉
about myself:
I thought my life was to be there for others, to support and help others to feel happier and safe. I have chosen the career of a therapist and have my first job for almost three months now going into homes to give therapy to children and families. That is how I came upon this boy, and his family.
I do my work alone, there is not protection should things get violent. I feared for my safety in that home and this boy has physically attacked many other workers who came into the home before me.
I was feeling heaviness in my heart since my father has been having more issues with his wife and she is threatening to leave him.
But since i was in this families home I have felt so much fear, uncertainty in my self, my career and the goodness of the world.
This is the most sick and fearful i have ever felt for myself. I feel little appetite, I have diarreah, I can not
sleep for one week now without medication no matter what I have tried (positive thoughts, gratitude journaling, walking for hours a day, talking to others) and when I am awake the minutes stretch like agonizing hours throughout the day full of negative thoughts and crying.
I resigned from my job a few days ago for “family emergency/personal reasons”, they say they are sorry and understand but give me two weeks of work to complete including going back to the families home to speak to the parents of that boy.
I am obsessing over these two weeks of work and feel extremely depressed. All I want to do is sleep but I can not due to anxiety and side effects of anti depressant/anti anxiety medication. I fantasize taking pills to sleep forever, but that is just a fantasy, I know, to give myself a break from this fear, anxiety, hopelessness and pain. I will not hurt myself bc I am loved and have so much support. My husband is so loving and giving,
so is my sister who has been holding my hand through this time over the phone with calls pretty much every day. My parents also love and support me very much.
I want to believe I will get through this and have a brighter path on the other side. I want to believe this will be a lesson in my life to live my best life and to chose things that
make me happy, not chose things because i feel i “should” and out of guilt. I feel I am locked inside looking out of a dirty window at the sunshine and happy people thinking “good for them, that will never be me”.
I will see a psychiatrist and therapist monday, this feels like my only hope.
I need help.

Lots of love and appreciation,
dorlie

[julie]

Thank you all so much for all the love and light. I am really trying to let it all penetrate and sink in.
Thankfully, I feel I have been able to move on and finally let go of that past love and it’s hurts. You all really helped me in our conversation several months ago.
I feel my fear and darkness stem from other areas.
As of several weeks ago I was struggling with not being able to “fix” or control my sick fathers unhappiness and worries. I feel
responsibility for his happiness and protection and am not able to control his environment as I would wish, and this weighs on me.
During this time of vulnerability I came accross a very sick family in my work two weeks ago. This family, espeically their son has tramautized me. This child had malicioiusness in his eyes and taunted to hurt me throughout the session in their home. I have felt fearful ever since my session in their home and think of them constantly. I feel overwhelmed by having to see them again which is what my supervisor is requesting. This has lead me to slowly becoming more and more sick and unsure of myself.
For two weeks I have no appetite and struggle to eat, have lost weight and in the past several days have insomnia. I am so scared for my health and have called out from work due to feeling so weak and overwhelmed. I feel I am in a downwared spiral that
will never end and wish to quit my job but we can not afford it. I don’t know what to do.
I have started on anxiety/depression medication but it has not kicked in yet. I yearn for a good nights sleep.
I feel so scared and lost.
Please send some guidance to help llight my way.
I am so appreciative.

[julie]

Dear John,
thank you so much for your posts. I always learn so much from both you and the answers you receive. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in your struggles.
xo,
Julie

I see my sister is here. Yay!! I am so, so glad. She is pretty wonderful.

O.K., so like John said before…Where do we start? There is so much to talk about! If it is o.k., I guess I’ll start with my post and work my way forward until the littles call for me.

You say “If you muster up courage, you’ll see you, as a child in many lifetimes, had horror.” I can’t see it, but I feel, yes…that seems right. Do I need to see each thing that happened? Is it important for me to go through all the horrors in order to understand myself and my path better? If so, how can I do this? I have the courage, I just don’t know how to “see” it on my own. I do work with Joanie on it when I get to see her, I just wonder if I can work on it on my own some.

I think I understand what you say about the children. That I had these certain things happen to me and so therefore I don’t want those things to happen to them. Yes, that is very true. But, I see. You are saying that the children have chosen these things to happen in order for them to grow. Just as I chose for certain things to happen in order to grow and learn.

You are right. My body is fidgety, my mind races when I do not want it to.

Thank you. I do not notice my self-deprication. I do not mean to be.
The dwelling, yes. I will keep my thoughts in check. I see what you mean about changing my thoughts about my dad. Put the good out into the universe, not the worry. Is this right? I make my reality.
Ha, ha. You know me well. I was not at all happy about the talks of medicine.
Thank you, Joanie. xoxoxox
Much love and gratitude.
Love,
Julisa

[julie]

Hello Joanie and David,
This is Julie’s sister, Dorlie. We have once spoken on the phone. I was unable to register due to some complications with web site and Julie recommended I come on here under her name to speed up the process.
I am hoping for some hope, some light at the end of this dark tunnel I’ve been traveling in.
Thank you for your support,
Dorlie

[julie]

Dear David, Divine Mother, Mary, Mother of G-d, Mary, Queen of Love, Yeshua, and all other Divine Ones who come with guidance in love and light,
I hold the hands of my children. I hug and kiss them and love them with all that I am. I am so blessed and grateful to be able to do that. I hold the hands of the other children (who will let me) and hug and kiss them. I love them too. I wait for the children, the people who are in need. I wait to hold their hands, love and hug them. I would like to gather them up and take them with me, take them home. I feel them around me, I sense them and their need, so I meditate and send my love to them. What more can I do? How can I find those that are in need? How can I help to heal them?
Mary, Queen of Love: How do we raise the vibration of this Earth? I try through meditation and intention, joy and love. Is there more I can do? I am full of love for this Earth, the people, animals, waters. I want to wrap her in my arms, hold her, love her, help her. Are there women I can seek out, that will teach me/show me? How should we use our strength?
Mary, Mother of G-d: I have seen many miracles. They are all around me. I am one, my existence. Every time I tried to throw myself away, I was saved. Again and again. I am so blessed and thankful. My love and gratitude is overflowing. Now I love to love, live to love and love to live. The people, the animals, the trees. I gush with love for them. It was hard before, I did not feel like I belonged. But I have learned that this is who I am, what I am and I am happy. I love everyone, but most people turn away. Yet, many times they will come back years later and tell me they finally understand, they are sorry (I do not ask them to be, nor do I want them to feel bad about it, I just move on). I am like a gigantic St. Bernard running towards a child, tongue hanging out, paws pounding the pavement. I am tired, but I do not despair. I am confused, but I know there are reasons and lessons. I ask for your guidance. Do I have too much energy? How can I channel it so more good comes of it? Why do I scare people instead of comfort and heal (this is what I want to do).
David: Thank you so much for your friendship, your guidance, your love. I read your words and follow your advice. I have been resting. I feel I am ready now. I want to work. I want to learn. I want to serve. What steps can I take now? In what direction should I look?
Can you also tell me what steps I may need to take now for my father? I did not try and save him from his life I remembered your words that I can not interfere), so I was a voice for him when things were not right. Now I wonder whether he is worse off than before. How can I help him?
Thank you so much, Joanie. XOXO
My love and gratitude to you all for your overflowing love and guidance. Thank you for your blessings. Thank you, thank you.
With love,
Julie

[julie]

Dear David and The Divine Ones,
I have sooo many questions!
I am ready to go. I love what is ahead of me as well as what is here. I go with my children, if they will let me, I go with them. Is it wrong to be so fiercely attached? Can I go with them?
You say, mind the little boy. Mind him, watch him? Why? What do you mean? Why does he need light on his chest? Does he get scared a lot? What is he afraid of? Have I scared him? I have done them wrong at times. I have not been the best mother. I have thrown tantrums just like they have, I have done so much wrong to the. How can I fix these things? How can I make it better? Have I caused permanent damage? Fragmented their light?
The light! How Can I give that to them? Do you mean the reiki that I have been practicing? I have been afraid to practice on them for fear i might give them something other than love and light.
What do you mean when you say, He comes to bring energy of madness out of the realms of life on Earth? What is energy of madness? How is he to release people from pain? What people?
Is it a past life that they lived on Giam? I was their mother there? It makes me happy to think that, though I feel they have taken care of me more than I have taken care of them. You say they were angels. Will they go back to being angels once they ascend? Were they angels on Giam? What was I? How can I stay with them if they do go back to being angels? What will I be? What will Eric be? I do not remember Giam. I wish I did. Why did sleep overtake me? Was it just my time to come to Earth? I can not say I remember it, but it sounds right. I love hearing her tell the stories. I only know that I am supposed to be with them. I can not imagine that I have ever been without them in the past. They are right and true and home. I can not imagine ever being without them in the future.
I will do as you say and look forward to our time to chat.
Thank you, thank you!!
Thank you Joanie for all your work.
My Love to you,
Julie

[julie]

Dear David,
Yes, I too am afraid. Afraid of failing and afraid of not completing my tasks, my work, my plan and running out of time. Afraid that I will do something wrong (or right) and those I love will leave. I know that I should not be afraid and I know that I am right where I need to be….so I am knocking loud and hard with my spoon. I am ready. I want to move,move, move. Though I am a bit fuzzy about where to move or how. You say that we know, or that we should know, but I am not so sure. I feel like I am standing in the middle of a candy store and there is oh so much that I would like to try, so much looks so good to me. Which is the one? Which is the way? Each one is wonderful, but is there a RIGHT path, the path I am intended to take? What if I chose the wrong one, will I let you/G-d/the world down? I want to help. I want to do my part. I love this world, these people/animals/trees, I want to do right by them.

Now…I have a question about ascension…I didn’t fully understand your answer to Joanie when she asked what others will think happened to her once she ascends. I have the same question…what will my uncle/aunt/cousin think happened to me and my family when I ascend? Do I keep living here and there at the same time? Do I disappear with a flood? Do I just disappear?
Also, what happens to all the animals? Do they ascend with us?

Also, about the Crystal kids. I was told that my two little ones are crystal kids. Is this true? If so, what does this mean? Can you tell me more about them, why they are here, How I can help them best (though I am sure it is they who are helping me most). Also, my older one has been talking of her life before she came into my belly, when she was in her planet Aya and she and her brother were married and then decided to come here with me. I know she has a wonderful imagination, is this part of her imagination or does she just know of her life before she came to me?

I have been learning much, I read (and re-read) your words and follow your advice. I see love and light in more and more and though I slip I find it easier to stand up again. (I am solid as a rock 🙂 )…I am learning/changing and I am happy for that. I want to fly.

xoxo to you Joanie.

Thank you so much.
All my love,
Julie

[julie]

Dear Denise,
You are not alone. I think most, if not all of us wee humans have fear of some (or many) sort(s). But, you are brave and strong and now even more brave and strong because you can see (and share) where you are and where you want to go. You are an inspiration. Thank you for your words, for your truth.
With much love,
Julie

[julie]

Dear Denise,
Thank you so much for your messages. I checked out the links and will keep watching. 🙂
Joanie, Thank you so much for your hard work.
David and Divine Ones, thank you for your tremendous love and guidance.
Love,
Julie

[julie]

Dear Denise,
Thank you so much. I will do this today. Thanks again.
All best wishes,
Julie

[julie]

O.K., the truth is that I am actually a little afraid that I might be crazy. What if I chip through all the grimy scabs only to confirm that I am not playing with a full deck? What if the real me is just a little (or a lot) off? Are all these impulses and ideas I have even beneficial to anyone but myself? How do I know what is real? How do I know who is the real me? I have been so guarded for so long, I am not even sure anymore and I know I am getting in my own way with doing the work. I have turned around so many times I don’t know where I stand anymore. Actually, I know where I stand for some things, I know what I believe in and why I am here, those are all very strong inside of me, those are all fighting things and I know I am not afraid to fight. It is the light things, the good things, those are the things I will not let myself be. Why? Why would someone be so ready to fight but so afraid to be light? I see now how much your last letter to us has bothered me. I did not realize it until now, but it has really stressed me out. I know it sounds silly and I know I don’t sleep enough anyway, but I have been getting more and more anxious since I read it. I am not (nor was I ever) upset about the letter’s presence, I am grateful for the opportunity to communicate and learn from you all. Only disappointed in myself I guess (I know disappointment does not serve me or anyone else). It is obviously (now, anyway) something that I really need to work on (yet something I have been working on for so long, but until now I don’t know that I have been giving it my 100%..I don’t think I have been fully living this commitment to change). I was doing so well for so long. But, little by little I could feel the rails going up around me and I could see myself becoming more and more frustrated with my inabilities. How do I break through? I know I can do it, I want to do it, but the truth is that I am afraid and I don’t know why. I know there were things that happened in the past that helped me learn to put my guard up, but shouldn’t the fact that I know these things make it easier to bring it down? Is meditation the only way to find and hear the answers? What else can I do? Where do I go from here? And is it even fair to ask you to tell me, shouldn’t this be my work? Shouldn’t I have to figure this out on my own? Isn’t this my path and am I cheating by asking these questions?
I am sorry for taking up so much room here. I only hope that like I am continuously learning from everyone’s posts, that someone besides me gets something good out of this overflowing load of laundry, at least a good chuckle or two.
Many thanks and much love,
Julie

[julie]

Dear David and Divine Ones,
One more question: Am I crazy? You haven’t mentioned anything so far, so I am assuming I’m not, but I can’t help feeling that if I am not crazy now, I am just a two-step away…..”Yes, I see legions of miniature humans lining up across streets and valleys just waiting for me to give them a hug…” (Maybe I should work in an orphanage or teach yoga to abused children?..), but still…..it would be nice to be sure…
With Love (and a little light(ness)),
Julie

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