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opalescent I think you are right she has a great goodness in her I have seen it but something has her in its grip, I think her two youngest children who are full of light and love are protecting her and her oldest child who is influenced by something too. How do I help her or get past the entities she is surrounded by? I can feel her fear and her need to be in the light – but something is holding her back, she has told me dreams where she was helping others trying to save them pull them into the light – she is in conflict. She has not answered my last email although I know she has read it I feel she is confused and whatever it is may be trying to keep her away from me. I really want to help her and want to give her strength to release herself from whatever has her in its grasp. I know I cannot do it for her. I will think on the best way to do this. These entities have separated her from those who could help her including me but I love her and want her and her children to be free.

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Hello Annan the Nordic

welcome to this wonderful site, your introduction was so vibrant, mine pales in comparison. The picture you identify with really does match you – a warrior of light and truth. I look forward to your contributions which I just know will be inspirational. Your name is powerful and magical. I dont really know about numbers being that I have never been one for working with figures.

I am new here myself and I have found it to be welcoming and comfortable.

Welcome again my friend.

Caz x

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I sent this video to my friend as a gift in the hope it will help her to realize the importance of how our vibration and emotions effect us. I would recommend everyone take a look.

Abraham-Hicks Feel Good Now,It’s Important
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=vCip4NaeAS4

Caz x

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UFO believe I am sure I have seen something similar to the pictures you have posted where I am. I have to say I am always looking at chem trails and just lately there are definitely less and less here. It seems as if they have stopped the heavy spraying . I see the occasional trail but not the tic tac toe grids that were once common here (I am in London). Also the sky seems a lot clearer and bluer and crisper. The air quality is improving 😀

If I see this cloud formation again I will try to take some pics to post here.

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@opalescent wrote:

About that mountain that blew up… our son is 4 and can watch some pretty intense stuff in movies, though he is quite limited for now with what he watches. He saw one that happened to have a mildly destructive volcanic explosion in it, and he lost it, cried inconsolably, deep grieving crying. I honor that, but what can Mommy do? I feel like I could be lying to say it wouldn’t happen again… So I hold him and let him process it. 🙁

I remember having terrifying dreams of volcanoes when i was a child, they persisted into adulthood. I havent had one for ages but your mention of your sons fears suddenly reminded me that I too share his fear of volcanoes. Just watching documentary programmes where people measure the volcano’s activity I start to feel panicky for them thinking they should run away. Why is it every video game has lava in it – its daft but I get really scared when I play a game with lava in it!

I have heard that a lot of phobias of things like dark places or water etc. are because of ancient memories.

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Teeka its okay it really is it sounds as if you have had a rough time of things in the past and I totally know how that feels when people take so much you have nothing left for yourself BUT we are both here now, at a wonderful place of light and giving for which I am truly grateful.

I suspect you are right when you said about the negative entities she really does exude an atmosphere of panic and negativity which is one of the reasons I was starting to back off from the friendship. As I started to ascend I realised that she was counteracting my positivity – She told me in the past of entities that were in her house (green glowing figures who looked like her ex bf) she even sent me some pictures of figures or forms she took in her house they appeared to be attracted by her son (who I really do think is an indigo/crystal child) – she told me my son probably had them around him but I have never seen sense or felt anything around my son except love and light. She has studied the occult and is very knowledgeable but as you suggested there is something that is with her that I found very uncomfortable as I began to change my way of thinking and feeling. Incidentally my son would cry every time he saw her and refused to go into her house if we tried to visit her. If she came to mine he would slap her – he really didn’t seem to like her (he cannot talk). But thinking about it now he really wasn’t happy around her.

Once when she was at my house we were taking pics of chemtrails and the camera went off accidentally when I was holding it but there was a hazy shape which looked scary with huge teeth (like in the film Alien). when we loaded the pics onto the pc she saw this image and started screaming immediately her two girls started to cry and scream and get hysterical. My daughter told them to stop and I remember her words “dont be scared – stop screaming you are feeding it” :O – my son ran from the room and smashed a window :O (and immediately the atmosphere of the house changed – almost as if something had been released)- this bought her and the girls to their senses. So you can see I really do believe you are right there is something around her.

I have never really been interested in the occult but I think many who dabble in such things can become victims of their egos. I once watched a video on ouiji board where a girl said she thought she could control the entities – she had a lot of training apparently – but she couldn’t – this is what I mean by egos. The entities are always there and we need to acknowledge and respect them. If I were to feel any negative entity around me I would speak to it and if I think it serves no purpose then I would tell it there is nothing for it to do in my life its work is done. I would thank it and kindly ask it to leave and release it. I have used orgonite to do this before.

At one stage my friend came around my house quite a lot and I began to feel a negative presence in my house my dog would constantly bark in one place in the back garden, at first I thought he was barking at foxes but one day I saw my son approach the same spot and babble in his own language as if he was talking to something – I just got the feeling it wasnt here to do my family any good. I took some organite and went to the spot I had seen my son and the dog at. As I approached I felt it draw back further into the bushes. I spoke to it at length and said. I will NOT allow you to hurt my family. My family is protected by my love – my love is stronger than your ability to harm us. I have no fear of you. There is nothing here for you please go. I then gifted organite and left. After that neither the dog or my son approached that spot and the atmosphere of my home changed for the better.

Your suggestion and advice is very welcomed as I know it given with a loving heart from your own experiences which I strongly resonate with.

We are both on a journey together and we do what we can to help each other.

With much love and appreciation and hugs.

Caz x

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Hi I have to say I no knowledge or memories of any past lives however I do identify with the feeling of being different and as if I was meant to do something important – but I can imagine most everyone could probably identify with that feeling.

I have had a pretty interesting (somewhat difficult life) even from being a child. As a child I used to see ghosts and have had dreams and premonitions (I saved my sister in laws life once). When I got to adulthood I tried my best to emerge myself into the real world or this third dimension by being constantly busy and I have to admit I went through a stage of being judgmental about others (but looking back this was because their faults were mirrored in myself) – I have always had a strong sense of right and wrong and would often come to the defense of those who I felt were being unfairly treated.

I guess if I was supposed to remember where I had lived before I would have. I just know and feel my work is in this lifetime but its interesting to read about other(s) experiences and memories 🙂

Peace and Light x

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Hi alaniz, I am new myself.

I am afraid I cannot offer you any advice re dreams as I rarely have bad dreams or remember my dreams. I must say judging from what you have dreamt thats a blessing.

I just wanted to say hello, since I am new here myself I hope you enjoy the site as much as I have. They are a lovely bunch of people and have helped me immensely with a couple of things I was struggling with.

Good luck

Luv and Light x

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Wow, I live on the south London triangle. Both my childrens schools (separate schools) are on that same ley. Our house is between the two schools. There are two leys cross over at my daughters school (which then go onto to the Tor) it has a long history which is very interesting. Elizabeth I used to visit there as did henry VIII when he was a boy. The land my sons school is built on was an estate owned by sir Walter Raleigh who is said to haunt the graveyard next to my daughters school. The gardens to the school were closed off as they found an underground grotto – there is also a system of underground caves in the area. I dont know if this is all coincidence but I felt as if I was “meant” to live in this house – given the circumstances I should never have had this house. I always wondered why the schools were on the ley – I know that often churches are placed on the leys. I am interested in this subject I just haven’t gotten round to really looking into it. As I have a lot going on – have quite a few crystals and organite I am hoping to start to make organite in the near future. To be honest aside from a feeling of calmness and sometimes a ringing in my ears I havent really been aware of the ley I just know its there. I havent been here that long (since late july) and a lot of things have been happening I need to relax and start meditating (which is something I dont do). My son is the one who seems to have blossomed here hes much calmer and happier.

Here is a history of the local area.

click the link below and search for the section I have put in quotes:

http://www.shadowtimepublishing.co.uk/mysteriousmitcham.html

http://www.shadowtimepublishing.co.uk/mysteriousmitcham.html

Part 2 – South of
Mitcham Common:
Carew Manor (my daughters school)
The Ghosts of
Beddington Park
Beddington Parish
Church & Churchyard

Under Beddington

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@Zingdad wrote:

awesome stuff Caz. I see someone taking their own power back. If we don’t stand for what is ours her in our material incarnations then how can we expect that we will stand and protect our spirit being, our energy, our life force in the ascended realm beyond. That is why this is such an important lesson. Beings who do not take care of their energy soon get leeched to pale sickness by all manner of energy thieves. Your “friend” was the bearer of a gift to you. She showed you how this works and how you feel when you allow energy to be robbed.

For what its worth I’ll tell you my principal. No one may take ANYTHING from me. Not a grain of dust. NOTHING!!! But I give and give and give with an open and generous heart. You see? It is my energy. So I shall decide how to expend it. If I give it then it has the energy of positivity and love. It can only heal and do good. And by me giving it away, miraculously I have more! Which I give away… and so a wonderful expanding cycle is started. But anything that is taken from me goes from me with the energy of negativity. It hurts both me and the thief. Becasue they WILL have to balance this with me later and becasue I am a little poorer. So it makes us both ill-er and weaker. So I have decided that NOTHING may get pilfered from me. and then I expend love and energy with joyful generosity. This is a principal I arrived upon about 2 months ago after some very painfully bad choices. I can say that it serves me stupendously well. I share my own learning in love. It might be of use to others…

Zingdad I have one thing to say “awesome stuff” I have had had my energy leached for years (there are some people who are “energy thiefs”), and me feeling bad without even knowing exactly what was going on. I can identify with the “painfully bad choices” – I am really glad I started this thread because I have really learned something valuable from it as I hope others will too. Its sometimes difficult to apply what we learn to our everyday existence.

Thank you so much for your fantastic responses and advice. You are amazing 😀

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Hi everyone I thought i would let you know

I have had a reply back initially she was angry.

Not that you give a flying fuck, i’m actually far too busy to deal with this shit right now. My phone is cut off and my internet is about to drop. Infact why the hell am I trying to appeal to your better nature? Ascend2luv my arsehole lol. Do what thou wilt.
The fact that you always seem to creep in when i’m at a low ebb shows me exactly what your energy is doing. I’m sure you feel shit about a few other things right now aye? Thoughts are whirring – “Oh, who has wronged me? Let me think, ahhh Libby won’t give the laptop back, i’ll harass her” That sure as hell doesn’t convey to me any semblance of higher nature. Well let me give you a home truth here. In my eyes YOU are stealing from my daughters, so the gloves are infact, off.
Bring police to my door? You will not cast that shadow over my family’s life. Think again.

The reference to the police is problems she has had in the past nothing to do with me.

Followed by another reply where she is less angry and more reasonable.

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Ok, this isn’t because you threatened me with the police. I’ve dealt with them before as you know. That doesn’t bother me one bit.
What does bother me is that you have been a good friend in the past, I can’t deny that at all. You have helped me out in times of need.
I will not have negative thoughts about you. But I will say, standing on the fulcrum here, that you really do come at me during a crisis. I was just finalising an online tarot ad, to get myself up out of the crap. (Long time coming), and my nets getting cut. I am trying to sort it, don’t distract me.
You can have the laptop back. Believe me, if I had any other choice i’d give it back quicker than you could say “Pain in the arse”. Not right now though.”

my final reply was :

Libby let me explain something to you. You will notice I am not asking for any money back (that I dont care about you can keep what you owe me which far outweighs the value of the laptop and camera) with the laptop and camera those are not mine to part with – the laptop i bought with the last of money I had from the house and it was Emmas birthday present. The camera was Garys last christmas present from his dad. So you understand their value. You have constantly stalled since we originally asked for them back in July. I don’t ever think is there will be a good time to ask?

Asking me not to distract you is akin to telling me to go away and leave you alone I am telling you now this will not go away and neither will I.

You said that my actions do not seem to you in alignment with a higher self – let me tell you that indeed they are totally in alignment. Being loving doesnt mean allowing someone to steal from you. Its simple if we are doing the right thing we feel good if we dont we feel bad. I tried forgetting about the laptop reasoning with myself that you needed it and thinking how unhappy that you and the girls would be. I know how important the net is to you but this didn’t stop me feeling angry cheated and hurt over what you had done. Emma and Gary are both affected as Emma agreed to let you and the girls loan the laptop so you have betrayed her too. Gary was initially reluctant to loan the camera but I persuaded him otherwise.

So you see if I was meant to “allow you to keep” these and it was the “right” thing for me to do I would have been happy. But I don’t I feel very negative about the whole affair.

I have given you until the end of September to do what you must do then I will go to the Police whether or not you say you have dealt with them before you are now breaking the law and we have proof of ownership plus every time I have asked you have refused to return them because “it wasn’t a good time for you”.

At one stage Gary was prepared to help build another computer for you but I am afraid he wont do that now.

Yes I am being a “pain in the arse” especially asking for it back but I do want it back – you have your own computer sitting there I suggest that even if it keeps switching itself off I can be used as it was okay when it was here. There is no reason for you not to give the laptop back now.

The law is on my side Libby its not something I want to do. Try reversing the situation what would you do, how would you feel if someone was blatantly refusing to return something that belonged to your daughter?

You have until the end of September. Your actions have bought this situation about. Since its our actions that determine our lives – perhaps this is the reason why you appear to be stuck in a never ending cycle of negativity. I am not doing this out of nastiness anger or revenge I am doing this because its the right thing to do.

Any upset to the girls are not by my actions (I have said nothing to them) its all come from you. I am truly sorry for them but you cannot realistically expect me put the happiness of your family before my own.

This is a good lesson for me on how to apply light, love and the understanding of what I have learned to everyday life, I would rather not be in this situation.

Your continued advice and input is very useful for me. I suspect that we will face something similar. My understanding is that we cannot sacrifice our feelings or go against what we believe is right to appease others.

p.s. I have had a great morning, I got stuck down a 10ft manhole in my back garden my son threw some of his toy trucks down there and they were blocking the drain – the little so n so tried to pull the cover back whilst I was down there laughing 😆 it wasnt very pleasant I can tell you – trying to climb up slimey walls and sliding back down was very diffcult but wasnt made easier by the fact Iwas laughing hard!

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@opalescent wrote:

Just a thought, Caz… had you thought of sending her the link to this thread? It’d be so… subversive. :ugeek:
But you seem to have opened your heart in a way she has not been able to receive. I mean, to offer it as a gift, not as a cattle prod. 😯

thats a great idea, funnily enough I was thinking I wish she could see this thread.

Thank you 😀

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Teeka there is no need to apologise but I know of what you speak – one of the things that I have studied is the law of attraction and how our emotions guide us. At first I thought it was all about ignoring the bad feelings and concentrating on the good feelings, almost saintlike but the law of attraction tells us to “balance” ourselves the bad feelings are our guide. When we feel bad we are not in alignment with what the universe is telling us. We have to analyse our emotions and see what is causing us to feel negative and deal with them. I tried to forgive, forget and carry on I really did but but this did not make me feel good. It wouldnt go away and I didnt feel at peace. Zingdad hit the nail on the head. when he posted.

Caz, what you do with the laptop is your business. Only you can decide if you are going to let it go or demand it back. It’s a laptop. It’s just “stuff”. But I would suggest that there is a lesson for you here and a lesson for her. What do you decide what that lesson is? What are you going to decide to teach yourself and her?

I was starting the learn the lesson of saying “no”. My friend (and her children) are isolated, alone and afraid because of the way she views others and treats others (I know she has done this to others including her own family). She used my affection for her children repeatedly to emotionally blackmail me – I saw her oldest daughter yesterday she was crossing the road and we stopped to let her cross and she wouldn’t even acknowledge us or look at us she just ran across and ran way – she was afraid of us :(. Let me stress, I do not do this out of anger, a need for justice and revenge but to show her she cannot continue to manipulate, lie and abuse other people. I had known I could get the the police involved a while ago , but thought it was too extreme and didnt want to upset her children. I tried to forget I couldn’t (please note I am not a materialistic person at all) if I was doing the right thing by forgetting I would have felt at peace and happy and my energy would have been calm but something wouldn’t let me it kept saying “you cannot leave this – it is difficult but you need to do something”.

I know that since she was refusing to answer the door or my phone calls – she is trying to ignore the problem – she does this with many things thats why in the past she would come to me for money – she ignores things until they reach a crisis point in her life – she would then appeal to me for help using my affection for her children. – she probably owes me over £900 in total. I would then find out that she had lied (because her kids would say something or she would “forget” and say something). The money I dont care about = but the laptop which is probably not worth more than £200 – I do. Financially it doesnt make sense but I cannot just walk away. The universe wont let me. I believe the lesson is as much hers as mine.

If I could walk away in peace I would believe me it would be the easier but something wont let me.

We balance our energy by doing the right thing however difficult it may be. It gives me no pleasure to do this but it balances my energy and feels right – I believe this is more her lesson than mine.

There is no need to apologise as I too thought like you but we cannot ignore how we feel our emotions are our guide. One of the difficulties is applying what we learn to everyday life. I am learning lessons everyday. One of the biggest lessons is to listen to my heart.

Thank you for your initial reply because you were right – if I could have chosen I would have chosen to forget and leave it (its just an old laptop after all). But thats not what the universe wants 🙁 –

I posted my justifications but my heart tells me the right thing is to show my friend that what she did was wrong and I sincerely hope she learns from it. I really hope she sees sense. I still have a lot of affection for her – I feel bad for her I know she is trapped but only she can break the negativity she holds herself in. I have tried reaching out and telling her (in her email she acknowledges this – but soon returned to negativity and despair.

Her children are so fearful I have witnessed this and my daughter telling them not to be afraid. Shes so well balanced and loving. We all have to find our own path and sometimes the universe will use us to teach lessons to others as well as ourselves.

We can ignore many things but not what is in our own hearts.

With gratitude love and thanks.

Caz x

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you guys are great. This has really helped to clear my energy, I honestly tried forgetting about it but it kept raising its ugly head and every time I heard or saw the word laptop the whole sorry affair would come into my mind and immediately I would feel “bad”. I guess for me it was that she not only abused my friendship but she abused the trust of my daughter – this was the most upsetting thing for me.

I can prove ownership. I have just emailed her telling her that she has until the end of the month to return it voluntarily then I will get the police involved as I will not allow her to just “keep” it.

I have asked nicely a few times and she has refused. I have no choice and I am not prepared to brood any further over this.

A lesson has been learned from my point of view. I always felt sorry for her as she had no friends or family she was very isolated and alone – probably as a result of treating everyone this way. I guess the lesson for her is that she cannot continue to abuse others for her own gain.

One of the things I have always done is to treat people the same way I wish to be treated. You give out what you expect to receive.

I guess the final straw was that I recently herd her in a chatroom talking about smoking and drinking when she had told me on the phone (she couldn’t give laptop back or replace her pc because she was so broke she cannot even afford to smoke anymore).

I feel much better having sent the email. Its very clear and precise. I have not sent it in anger I have merely told her I want what belongs to me and mine back and there is no room for negotiation.

Thank you all for helping me. For the first time ever since this happened I am beginning to feel clearer and happier. For me its the right thing to do.

Peace and blessings to one and all 😀

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Opalescent what a great reply and how very apt – especially in view of the laptop 😆 !

I have read your post and will read it a couple of times more so it sinks in – as there is a very important message there.

I really do appreciate your views and advice. One of the greatest difficulties I sometimes have is that in my day to day life I become distracted and react in a knee jerk way (its difficult to silence my pesky ego) – I just felt really awful over all this so I knew that my “bad feelings” alone were telling me move on. I had been backing off from the friendship prior to this and being straightforward and honest when the calls for help came I just started to say no. The laptop was my 12 yr old daughters who had generously let my friend use it (as she could use my pc) – she is an absolute angel – i have had to to to explain all this to her and she was upset and confused. One of the things that really angered me that in the email she was explaining about her children’s happiness even though she knew laptop was my daughter’s.

BUT

I am going to move on from this. I posted it here as I just wanted get it off my chest and I will have a little chat with my daughter later (we have already decided to buy some pc bits and gary will build her a brand new pc for xmas). I will just have to tell her that sometimes people do things that hurt others because THEY believe its right. Its difficult but I need to help her understand and overcome this too. We can help each other – the really sad thing is that my daughter and her girls were friends and they are ignoring her too. They wont even answer the door to us now – the last time gary went round there to pick up a camera that she also had and she got really angry at the kids when he left he could hear her screaming at them saying “dont answer the F****ing door!” – he said he felt sorry for them :(.

thanks again everyone. I am taking your advice on board. I do so want to stay on a higher vibration and be positive and empowered but every now and then these tests come along I suppose its all a learning curve.

Its great to be amongst people who are so positive and upbeat.

Light and Love to all 😀

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