[jldy]

Ya its me again. John 🙂 have my computer back but I M NOT VERY WELL WITH kidney stones still a problem. if i DONT PASS them by tomoro they want to go in and take then out . Ireally dont feel well so my computer will have ti waite. Keep well and Ill do my best to kee in contact. Pray for me. John 😉

[jldy]

Hi Joanie: This was the only way I could think of contacting you right now. Seems my email has stopped working and I am receiving nothing nor can I send out.I had this happen once before a couple years before and I fixed it by restoring an old (a backed up) windows. So I will try this tomoro and see what happens.hopefully it will work.I will be in contact via my email if it works. My best to you and your family;I wish you well.
John 😉

[jldy]

ThankYou All and especially Zingdad for whom I owe much. You have all shown kindness and guidance making me realize I am not alone ,not at any time all I need to do is reach out.I have a long road to travel but with such strength and honesty and friendship the trip will be a short one! And of course Joanie holding my hand along the way! 😉

[jldy]

David hi! There was a lot there for me to take in and I really had to think about it. Again I feel love as a word is bandied about to much and I will always be careful in how I use it. I am in a tight spot in my life with my health and it has a certain amount of control over me but I dont give in to it. I do believe that certain people come together for a reason and I am lucky to have found Joanie and Zingdad as they have set me straight on many things . I am on a journey and maybe someday I will find all the answers to my questions but in the meantime I will keep searching and questioning hoping for that final answer.
I have a love for you David and your friends because you earned it. All the Best…………….

[jldy]

Oh You Guy’s do ask the tough questions! And I’ll try and answer without lying. 😉 I think everybody is loved by someone at sometime in there life; I know without a doubt my mother loved me, absolutely . My brothers and sister I dont think ever did though they probably tolerated me and liked me but dont anymore. My uncles and aunts did and still do (only two left)so I know they all do still.And so on! But to me love is a very strong word and often used for the wrong reason. Certainly not a word I take lightly or use easely but no finer words have I heard when said from the heart. I have not alot of friends but I have some very good friends but I dont think they love me 😉 . So I guess what I’m saying is hear on earth no but I dont feel bad about that, lonely sometimes but happy to know the truth of life as my love is waiting for me!

[jldy]

I send you all the brightest light of intention and love (not a word I use easily or often) I can. You humble me with your graciousness and offering of kind intentions. I Thank You for all your guidence as you make me feel like a person with a future.
I dont know how else to say it but as an old song says “You Light Up My Life”.
I will follow your wisdom in earnest!
John 😉
P.S. My Indebtedness to Joanie!

[jldy]

Oh You Guy’s never cease to amaze me . Your answers to my blabbering are always right on. I dont want to be a pain in the butt so to speak but you answer so many of my questions with eligence and honest and truth. My Mind is my Best Friend because it is me and with my mind “enquireing minds wish to know”. The reason I feel I want to know so much is that I want to be a part of it…..I feel I have something to offer but its looking more and more that that will happen from the otherside as I am fast running out of time here;which is allright with me as I’m very tired.
Being on this side of the vail was a choice for a reason that is not clear to me but that is the way it is supposed to be at the moment so that I respond to situations in clear and new manner; Probably to test me as a being but surely to make me think and grow at the rate I am supposed to. So when you tell me how easy it is to direct my life I think that has already been decided and that I now must follow the trail of crumbs or I would truly get lost…..But that doesnt mean that along the way I cannot look in different directions or ask questions but I do believe that at my state of development me controlling things is not in the cards. We are all here at differnet levels of developement so I will wait my turn but I will continue to question and search for answers. I an open minded way of course. Thanks for putting up with me and answering my questions and thanks to Joanie for all her help. You guys are great.
John in Limbo

[jldy]

Regardless of my belief or my reslove I appear not to be able to do anything in the direction that you point me. Wether its the vail of unknowing or human just plain human blindness I have not been to cross that line of understanding. But I imagine if any human could bring into being his or her wish’s we would have quite a mess of a world. Unless it works differently then I understand. Once again ThankYou for All your help and Kindness.
Your student John 🙂

[jldy]

Wow You do know how to make a person think! 😉 .To the point that it hurts ;well as the saying goes ” No Pain No Gain ” 🙂 . I wish to thank you now for taking the time to listen to me and respond to my questions and answers! You are very busy beings!.
If I was to ask for one thing in my life it would be consistency in a positive direction. So that I may concentrait on the more important things and be of more help to others and myself. The inconsistencies of life keep me off balance and out of phase more the not; this is a mind breaker keeping me out of synch and less able to do the things I wish to do.
Creating good things for all instantly or otherwise could only be a good thing and if I could learn to do this with your help I would be eternaly indebted to you and your friends.
May your road to enlightenment be smooth and easy!
Your Friend in Need John. Another saying is ” A friend in Need is a Friend in Deed” 😮 . I hope I am more then that!

[jldy]

I understand your point, there is much to consider before jumping into the flames! A Big mistake is to let emotions overtake common sense. Not to consider the person in needs stability is foolish and dangerous because they usually only see themselves. You are correct when you say you have given me lots to think about and I dont know if I’ll ever have all the answers but with your help I have a better pallet of colors to think with.
Again I am indebted to your help! 🙂

[jldy]

There must be alot of people who feel like me as what you have said so much resonates with my life and for some reason is peaking now. There is an old saying “boats boats boats everywhere but not a boat to be found” (i mighte not be exactly right on that but I think the meaning is obvious as in my life I state it as such “People People People everywhere and not a person to be found”! And that rings so true to me. I carry to much luggage of old and in this life of loneliness I dont know how to get rid of it; and it is time! I reach for that person to help me,to be a part of my life but in a world of abundance they are not there. 😐 . David You and the Devine Ones seem to know whats going on and make a person take count of there doings because really we are the sum total of what we do in each life.
Once again You have Taught me Lots now its up to me to learn. 😉 ThankYou

[jldy]

The Best to You All! Life is filled with decisions and the descision to help those in need can never be a wrong decision……….or Can it? I am and have always been their for those who need help and do what I can to be of service. But I have found out recently that good deeds do not always lead to good endings. I recently tried to help someone I know who had completely lost there where. Well long story short I lost my friend made an enemy and hurt myself more in the process of my wanting to do good . And thats where I learned you cannot help someone who does not want to be helped. Now I am much more careful in my desisions to help. I often look for answers in the words of others because I feel the no one person has all the answers but a group can be genious; but not everyone sees it the same way 🙄 . Saying no to someone in need is very difficult for me as I have to determine between whats good for them and whats good for me and that can be painful. There is a big difference between needing help and wanting help and I seem to have trouble figureing this out 😕 .
Anyways thankyou for your comements up to now and one thing I do know for sure is life goes on no matter what or who gets involved.
With Appreciation and Understanding Thankyou
John

[jldy]

Thankyou for giving me your time and expertise! Yes I did learn a good lesson from that first experience and that was to pay more attention to what is going on about me to avoid silly mistakes as such.
As for my mother…..That was an experience I could have done without but I loved my mother and would never of abandoned her. She just wanted to be able to spend more time with her family and felt she could handle the pain by staying awake. My job was to make some discissions for her at this point and the doctors and nurses answered to me for her care. When I realized how coherent and alert she was the descission was taken out of my hands because my mother was clearly able to make such a discission so it was then my job to get the doctors to do such as she requested. I do not regret for one minute the discission I made on her behalf. She had a week more of her family and was so happy and so much to say. It was a sad time it was a happy time.

[jldy]

Love your answer..ThankYou! 🙂 . I did have to go over it a couple of times then I put my glass’s on 😉 .I understand your points in regards to unforseeable circumstance’s and events coming into play but I suppose thats all part of what it’s about. AS for my good memory I havent found it yet…. 😉 . But I do recall some such misfortunes…..I remember once it was snow covered day, nice bright sunshine and I was on my way to pickup my girlfriend after work. Now the roands were covered in snow and there were two tracks in front of me ;a 10 foot ditch to my right if I followed the correc path I would just keep going my merry old way but no I took the wrong ones and it pulled me into the ditch. I was late 🙄 . Another one was when my mother was in the hospital dying of bone cancer. She had been unconcious then for about a week when all of a sudden she woke up and said ” I know what your doing keeping me drugged and asleep, let me wake up so I can speak”. Well it was the very end of my mothers illness and she was in a LOT of pain but when she was awake her mind was good so I went to the doctor and told him to cut back on the drugs so my mom could wake up and visit. It was a hard discision and she lasted another 2 weeks but the pain was always a problem for her. Sometimes you dont know left from right but as long as you do the best you can what else is there. And of course there’s many more but I think that should do. It’s great listening to you guy’s because you have taught me so much! All the Best! 😎

[jldy]

Dave ;Your messages are deep and so true. When I started walking this path it took me awhile but I did come to the realization that this life is just another one of many that I have previously played and most people around me are playing with me for various reasons of their own and helping me along my path. I now hold no anger towards people in realizing they are doing what was asked of them; for this I am greatful even though it does hurt at times 😉 .
What I am not sure of is do we always follow the road preplanned or does nature do things to interfear? Are there the unforseened actions that step in the way?
Is it possible that some illness’s are unplanned and must be delt with here under the veil of unknowing on our own?
And I do so much appreciate my friends and family now for their part in my life and especially people such as Joanie and Zingdad who are helping guide me with their wisdom love. To these people especially I hold my hands out in love! Also I would never have met David and his friends,and Joy Devine,or Adamu with their guidence and help and love. ThankYou,ThankYou So Much! :). I dont where I would be without you all!

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