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Just made a PM to Shylo , Zing.
There’s someting fishy going on .
Numerous accounts are being created every day by either bots or hacks.
Just check the ratings/day & even the sites they advertise.
You being mod aswell could maybe put a stop to this .

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[Bigfeet E]

Hi everyone,

Wasn’t aware that a number of posts allready came to pass, and just found out last evening. I had subscribed this thread, but no further notice came tru after 1 post.
Guess that doesn’t work to good… anyway i’m glad to see what’s bin written.

Well ; where to start…
First of all i wasn’t really looking to be healed persé. More like : Hey wow, a chance to connect 1 on 1 with wiseness on a equal basis. Oppertunity – Bling Bling – does’nt come around that easely.
I believe my first initative to speak out here was the trigger of remembrance of my own experience regarding of what i spoke about, and the questions that still lingered with me about the way this experience came to be, in a way that it wasn’t confirmed from another point of view that’s currently out of my reach … sort of speak. A ‘real’ talk in depth for a change, not lingering on chitchat superfacial nonsence or creating more mist where the point is to clear the mist. My Aries-side craves this straightforwardness to the core.

Ofcourse i made my own trail of thoughts and possible realisations, and made my peace with the most fitting reason or goal that went behind it.
But then earlier in this topic it was asked by John from where David are residing & the answer was kinda from a different density/dimension wich interconnects & are clearly more consciously accessable for them as for us folks here in 3d/3D . As i am not smoking marihuana anymore, my own access to those realms has deminisched greatly & i do however kinda miss the experiencial benefits.
The impact however of sudden unexpected ‘clear’ speach blew me over. As i said, you can resemble it with putting your ear to a soundbox when first you could difirentiate voices lower than whispers, when suddenly someone cranked open the volume 😆 – together with the ‘pull-up’ torsional/tunneling/travelling sensation – it was quit a unexpected freak out moment at the time.
Never felt it was by my own doing, that i got a little help there , a beam me up sorta thing … although i know i’ve must have bin receptive in order to make it work.

for it is here you may find that the reason you took time to speak was for good reasons you had at that time.

So i guess that worked back on the subconsious level then, and now you ask me to spill the beans . (grrrr, damn it) 🙂
Well let me tell you i’m usually not that keen on blatantly waving my old scars anymore, as this rather open method hasn’t served me well amongst ‘others’.
However, i feel that you can be trusted so that sets me more at ease. Still it doesn’t come in a comfortable pace, wich is only my own conditioning – i know –

Let me just stop beating around the bush here…
My ‘problem’ was/is with my way to express my love for females in a mating manner. It is such a delicate situation that requires the gloves of love/desire/involvement/looking-tru-their-foggy-masks, and i project(ed) an image on how i feel how i want it to be (don’t we all?). Thus so in a manner that comes spontaneously/naturely/exitingly etc. I have come to understand that this is one of my hardest tasks to learn, and sometimes even wonder if this is a road i’m supposed to take or even still want to take it. I’m slowly coming to age allready & quit frankly, my excavations have the nack to be unfortunate due to either my own self-sabotage or not finding who i seek. All sorts of complications from all sorts of sources. Firstly i seek my own balance ofcourse and learned tru heartache as bin said … ‘s bin a good teacher yeah, but that hasn’t cut it to the real deal yet.

Safe to say, i’m not the kind of guy that wants to learn tru going butterflying from 1 flower to another, that’s just not me, with respect to those who can.
But now i’ve come to the position that it becomes harder & harder to achieve the lovers game, and the intensive yearning is also fading with time. It all travels in phases, and most times i’m either to late or unaware . All factors to be recond with, i pull the shortest straw.
I’m not keen to give it my attention nor energy anymore & just keep going the way i choose to direct most possible fruitionly by my own sence of intuition.
The door is still open, but there’s nobody on the other side. Can’t blame anyone really, as there’s none to blame. I’ve bin told by a soul who call’s himself master Morya that i’ve had much help allready & i believe him. I was just not aware nor witted enough to pick up the trail. Que serra, serra – What ever will be, will be … Just feel alienated with it all & tend to keep it on an imaginationlevel.

OK. So, Erik. How about doing us a small favor? Take a nap. See whether we are in a dream. See if we show our faces or guises or masks in shape, form, laughter, senses — however we might come over to meet you

Hmmm, that’s a bit out of my reach, my friend. I have practicly no awareness in/of my dreams.Let hold identifying others projections from mine. The only things i can recall is when i just wake up & usually that’s little to nothing unless it was a very vivid dream, wich are rarely. I do practice trying to recall the ‘message’ from time to time, but i must say i have no time to linger much on them. As having to wake up early in my workingschedule, i kinda break my natural sleepsequence every time, and have to get ready for my ‘other’ time. Yes, i don’t really call it ‘my’ time – working for money – and that’s why i try to suck as much as possible out of my ‘free’ time, wich is mine to do as i please. I’m aware that in this way i weary myself to much as is within healthy scales, but it is a sacrifice (lol) i gladly pay sometimes. The toxication on regular bases by chemtrails does’nt help either …
I’m used to living with pains and aches and numdnesses. I was born with it. Guess conditioned a little it and tend to ignore certain warningsigns. It sets the pace to overcome it, over & over again. Think i would even feel strange if it wasn’t anymore. Hah, that’s another thing in my so called love-live. I don’t know any other way & would be & am) very unsettled if i came to live with someone besides my own.

I see in ‘the first of the litter’ post you’ve allready pointed out lot wich with i totally agree.
I try to live that way as much as i can, and aproach love in a more unconditional fashion.
One would believe it would answer the love question in a way of compagnions/lovers, but in this society no such luck … yet.
Most are so sticked on the conditional way of love, with all kinds of (to me) silly rules & unspoken predetermined roles to comply, that it seems there’s no room for spontaneity anymore.
I feel if when it all comes around to compromise, the pureness has bin tainted & the outcome is allready determined that way.
Is it not so that this unables the very dynamic of freedom ? Or am i fleeing from my shadow this way ?
I thought that being the light itself would not cast my shadow anymore, am i right ? Ofcourse “saying it & doing it” have to be the same, otherwise there’s no point in saying it. 😆

OK, enough of me …
Let me just say that i’ll take your advisements in honest considerations and i feel privileged with your presence, meaning all of you !!!
Love talking to you,Joanie/David/The Ones/”Her”…(refering to Holy Spirit/Kundalini … just guessing ?)/My Guide(Terna?) and … 😀

@John wrote:

I have thought long and hard on your advise and yes you are correct these things are helpful but I’m afraid much beyond my ability to pay

Damn, sorry to hear that , John.
Maybe the cheap ones are not availeble to your area, usually they are the most sinsere .
Their are ofcourse a number of other methods you can pick up, and combine. Point is that you can learn from many ways and integrate to create your own ‘style’.
That is inevitably , imo , the way to progress.
I’m sure that means will come your way, that you’ll pick up on them – as like the beautifull service presented here by Joanie & David & …- if you put the intention out.
Law of attraction, some call it. There ‘s lots of yoga’s out there, and i tried a few myself, so glad that i did.
There was a point in time the doctor thought i was almost ripe for a wheelchair, his words. But grabbing the bull by the horns myself took me out of that supposed fate.
May providence be your mate … m8.
😉

And now i really must have my dinner i promissed myself to eat … 3 hours ago.
Cheers y’all.

Virginfeet Erik
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[Bigfeet E]

… Back , hey how’s everyone today ? 🙂

Great to see you made progress there, John ! You discribe a wonderfull experience & it seems you learned a thing or two in directing your attention.
Trusting divine Mother & starting to utulize tools of the Wizard … and look how it unfolds in realisation. Just beautifull, m8 !

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Well Joanie, nice to see we share common insight & empathy for those in need. Although i’m not quit sure my little story went exactly the way you put it, it certainly came to pass with lessons wich are still active today. What i believed then & how i see it now is not the same anymore. After that year it wasn’t over yet, but it served as a catalyst to get me over 1 picket of the fence, as David so elegantly putted.
Thing is , i didn’t go over the fence, but just travelled to the next picket of the same fence. And come to think of it, it must be a circular fence with no beginning or end. 😆 It’s the getting over the fence that will spare me the sting hahah. Let’s just say it’s a long & recurring process, but their’s no other way. What was discribed in my previous post didn’t really touch the origin of the problem i was battling with.

Thanks for the recommendation btw for those books, i had one before but that went ‘lost’ as i lended it out to some old friend & had it never returned. Offcourse i can’t recall who anymore, but just hope he had good use out of it. Never got to read it to it’s full extent, because i didn’t gave it my full intention at the time. It’s still on my ‘wanting-to-do’ list wich seems growing much faster then my ‘actually-doing’ list.
There are just so many fascinating roads to be taken of that same old mountain haha.

As for the matter growing together, i think we’re off on the good foot & who know what still lies before us. Feels exciting …
The reason i’m found my way hereon B.o.L is thanks due Zingdad & Adamu’s words back some years aswell. Great information they bring forward, not to mention ‘The Ascension Papers’.
That’s a cake i can’t stop eating.

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Ah David, nice to talk to you again.
You certainly got it right when you speak of my learning-arch. As i was just saying to Joanie, there seems to be no end to all potential ways to discover. Makes it difficult to attend myself to a discipline in full extend and forget about the rest from time to time. And it feels like i’m just getting into character here & finally getting the hang of my roleplaying on the stage of 3Dlife. As to the way y’all ‘call’ me, i could see that notion in a couple of different but related ways.

The One Who Is About Change, Yet Can’t Find Why There’s So Much Resistance Around Here.(laughter) Do you feel this way? Do you see that the people by you don’t see what you do?

1. As to resistance from my external surroundings, i do can see the reason why. Comes down to miscommunication due to different approaches of interest.Relativity in one word.
2. Resistance originating from within, i can also see the reason why. Actually the same in origin as point 1, namely from unknowing & fear. Must admit that i still can be blind in certain ways.

And the relation between the two being offcourse that we all percieve the external from the mirror of truth that’s within.
So i can put things in perspective if needed, as to where i was consumed by explosive anger that i resolved to before. Must catch my deluded ego by surprise sometimes still to stop the loco-motive 😆 and the whole balancing swinging chain of wagons that comes behind it. But yeah, i’ll manage thank you, think i had my fill of that lesson.

We are seeing you love debate. Is this so? So, how’s this?

Indeed – yes – feels good, invigorating.

If we take you far, will you go there? Will you go as far as we want you to go? This is our question, Erik

… 🙂 …
I’m intrigued, bit stunned with anticipation.
As i said before, let’s go with the flow. I’m up for it if you’re up for me.

…

To Abe,

I understand where you coming from & respect your place.

…

Last note:
Come to think of it, don’t know if i’m even properly introduced to the identification of my own guide(s).
Don’t really know if they are comfortable with the form of identification as in names.
But i do notice from time to time communication tru synchronicity.

I wish you all (Joanie,John,David,Abe,Stefanie, & whoever is observing in the background) my warmest regards,
Erik / Bigfeet

[Bigfeet E]

Hello ppls, Joanie,John,David & even Abe,

Can i budge in this lovely conversation? (budge-budge) 😆
I’ve bin reading the whole topic, as it’s the only topic alive around here, and i must say it’s bin enjoyable and very recognisable for me.
Save to say that it covers a lot wich i’m somewhat unable to verbaly express with my surroundings, as their is so little receptance for the subject.
So it’s quit nice to see it living over here … that’s refreshing. So, if you don’t mind, i’ll sit here with y’all around the campfire & swap story’s, knowledge, silence & laughter in comradery.
I’m Erik btw. , pleased to meet you all ! 🙂

So let me start off addressing Joanie, what a nice gift you have there & what a fruitfull job you’re doing with it !
I can remember a time in my life,around 27 of years, wich were i was in deep turmoil with myself and ; i came to notice i was being called upon … hearing my name without actual sound.
At first i couldn’t place it as to what it was, and if i was not just imagining hearing this. It all started after i send out a huge cry for help out/in ‘there’ to anyone.
It was ever so faint, so i really had to focus real hard and stretch my hearingsences to the max to even sort the difference to what was me – rambling in my head – and ‘the voice’ .
I was smoking a lot of weed/marihuana back then in a most irrisposible way, but it helped me tap into my feeling again.

So i started to experiment with my own voice in my head and the one that was not originated from little me, just to get aquanted with wich is wich & sorta calibrate this new ‘voice’.
In general it was all really confusing and it took a while for me to accept/allow it all, it kept pushing even when i didn’t welcome it.
Biggest trouble in all this was understanding what was bin said in the litteral way, y’know it was so faint it was even below whispering.
Quit a frustrating process on its own, and i never really got the hang of it. I could make out bits & pieces. For a while there was almost a conversation… sort off.
And if that wasn’t even confusing enough, there were a number of other voices in the mix 😯 :lol:, i could even make out male & female among them. Interesting was that at 1 time in the nights of all hallow/all saints day it was actually easyer to hear & understand …

Well, to cut this story a bit, cuz it’s becoming a lot here, they tried to pamper me, tease me, & then some to make me move out of where a had set my attention on in the emotional realm.
This whole period took about a year or so & i got so fed up with the whole disempowering feeling to really speak clearly as like we do here, together with my own frustration regarding my own (created) problem i was living with, that i dissided that i wanted it to end. In the end i was under the impression that these contacts were not of the benevolent kind & that i was being prawn of negative entities that i called upon myself coming from the law of attraction of my own pulsating negative vibe.
So at that point i resorted to a meditation and asked for a ‘higher’ & ‘more pure’ being to intervene as it was going nowhere in my point of view.

After that i immediatly went to bed and started listening again.
Point is, i was getting used to being so concentrated in listening to the point of almost holding my breath by breathing so slow; to let the sound of my breathing not to interfere; when suddenly – in a blink of the eye – i had the sensation of being tunneled up/in superfast a sort of tubelike way, bright blinding light and a clear distinct almost loud voice saying :” SO THIS IS ERIK (+surname) !!”
This got me so freeked out, i immediatly ‘fell’ down again in vibration cuz of the shock & was back in my bed again …
The fear kicked in good now, shivers down my back and pulled the sheats over my head. 😆

After that the connection of unhearable whisper hold on for some time but slowly faded away. Always felt kinda sorry that i wasn’t able to finetune the radio sortaspeak.
I still think it could have bin a resourcefull asset for me, but i guess it was unfruitfull to carry on in that manner.
And that was, what i think, my experience with ‘channeling’ .Kinda miss it sometimes…

To David i’d like to say, wow, i think you’re doing fantastic , doing the service that you do aswell !
It’s quit beautifull & i’m honored to talk to you in a open verbal manner. Many thanks for the wisdom you like to share & i see the way it’s most pleasant for you aswell to be able to do what you like to do.
Maybe you would like to give your viewpoint on what happened back then regarding my previous story to me. I’dd sure like to hear it if you feel the need.
Furthermore i’m just happy to be in this gathering. I feel like i can get on the same page with you for what you’ve bin bringing. That’s just great. 😀
I’m gonna cut it a little short, as i’m bin talking for some time allready. But i sure like to go with the flow here & let it come spontaneously to be.

To John i like to suggest to pick up Tai Chi (the way of energy), wich is a form of meditation on y’r feet.
Maybe you haven’t heared of it yet, but it is a chinese kinematica (hope my translator got this right haha) wich is very beneficial regarding your current fysical problem.
It really can help you balancing mind,body & soul as this was my own experience aswell. You can complement it with Qi gong wich is focused on breathing exercises … really helpfull.
I’m just wanna point you into a direction help you to resolve in addition to what’s allready bin given. I feel it’s resonating on the same intention.
And maybe it can set a co-working base in a branch of new ways to explore. Hell, maybe you can even grow to be an athlete. Tai Chi is the base of all Kungfu …!
Hope this will be helpfull for ya. Just be sure to find a good teacher who is not in it for the money, them work from the heart & wont be keen to ask more than they need.
Offcourse all this is just 1 way to choose action, there are so many more…
Good luck 😉

To Abe i’d say … Hey Abe, how are you doin ?
Haven’t seen him expressing himself in a verbal manner here, but i’m sure he’s a great guide.
It’s great to know we (humans) are all being guided in 1 way or another.
Although i’ve never had the pleasure of knowing the name of my guide(s), i sometimes contemplate in how you all in general work and how the structure work for one becoming a guide in the first place.
It intrigues me, i ‘m like that, wanting to know how it all comes together.

I’m gonna stop talking now haha, seems like i’m talkin to long allready … for now … 😆
I’ll practise the fine art of listening.

Warm greets to you all,
Erik aka Bigfeet.

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[Bigfeet E]

Hello again Zing & everybody still visiting here ! 😉

First i’d like to say waw to your acomplishments with the whole housebuilding-and-turning-around-your-life bussiness.
That’s hats off in my view. I can appreciate hard work for what it’s worth. Admiration …
Liked the pictures you posted on y’r blog, and 1 catched my eye where you are standing in the late evening watering your crops.
The sweatshirt or t-shirt you’re wearing has a sweatstain in the form of a heart.
I found it very applicable in the whole scene of giving yourself on the job totally … made me laugh. 😆

Now i’ve bin thinking about what would be a good question to ask regarding the info given in the ascension papers.
Usually they come to me during my own travels of investigating all concepts, and now i can’t seem to remember any of them (typical)
I believe its because i have a habbit to let it loose as quickly that grabbed it, in order not the get stuck and make it an issue.

… contemplating …

Ok, here’s one:
I was wondering, on regard of the dimensions part, if we individually evolute (or is it involute) from 3d to fourth & fifth & so on in a kind of lineair fashion, as in that you can not ‘skipp’ one because
they all need to be experienced before you can level up? I realise this maybe a question that has no simple answer, as the density part has not bin toppled yet, and wich i’m sure it’s totally interwoven
with the dimension part back & forth & in any way i can not even come to imagine. The reason i ask this lies in an underlying question wich involves trying to wrap my mind around the actual ascension
of the individual part and of the earth part and for the whole solarsystem for that matter. (and even larger maybe ?)

Some ppl present for example that earth would ‘shed it’s skin’ literaly and become a star. They ground it with pretty good arguments . They speak of going from 3d to 5d, wherein 3 & 4d would collaps…)
Although plausible i feel this is not entirely correct, more like ascension works more on the perceptional manner, also on a cellular level and doesn’t include a destruction or collaps on the material (& astral)plain in totallity.
Then again, i don’t really know … haha. Maybe i should re read the ‘papers’ again. Every time i do the image changes and with every new piece i find in other sources the global picture becomes more confusing.

The net is buzzing of all kinds of interpretations & theories around the happening and makes it hard to shift. Much of these perceptions start offcourse from our current level of dimension & density.
Also i try to puzzle these within my own experiences & learnings involving the inner rising proces of Kundalini in the most spontaneous way.
I’d love to hear a perspective how this fits the ascension process in any way possible. I find it most workable in my own process, but still haven’t got the full feel of it, sorta speak.

Finally in the end i know i have to live it on my own and mentally i rush to far for the rest of me to follow.
And usually i feel ending up with to little to grasp that helps me in the sence that i’m progressing.
Probably i’m being somewhat frustrated with impatience in that matter.

The question(s) are open to whomever likes answering. From channeled to non-channeled i mean.
Thank you for listening anyway !

Warm Greets,
Erik. 😉

[Bigfeet E]

@Bask wrote:

I’ll send some warmth to the Netherlands 😉

<3

But i live in Belgium … 😕
The dutch – speaking part that is , in Vlaanderen (Flanders in english i believe)
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[Bigfeet E]

Beautifull pictures and little blessing movie.
Thanks for sharing, Ladybird.
🙂

[Bigfeet E]

Hey Nekodos !
😉

[Bigfeet E]

Ah … nice 😀
Almost thought nobody came around anymore.
That would have bin a sad thing.
Still, it’s very quit here.
Seems that , in the absence of Zing, the whole dynamic lost its flavour.
That’s not healthy in my view. Maybe its just that time of the year when everybody is in retreat…
Hope the spark, that lights up this forum, catches on quick again.

Ps. Really like the beard GT, it suits you. 😎

[Bigfeet E]

Very beautifull words en teachings.
Have had some little practice of Tai Chi in the past.
Unfortunately i was’nt able to continue the lessons.
Stepped over later on to practice Shaolin Kung Fu for some time.
Also had to quit cuz this teacher was not pure in intentions and was later caught selling drugs…

Now i really am curious of what i’ve seen in this presentation.
To really experience is to be it, otherwise i know nothing.
So i don’t take things for granted as i see them with my eyes.
Must admit i’m a bit skeptical about the actions shown here.

If only i could experience them myself …

[Bigfeet E]

Hi Raf,

Welcome to book of light.
Always nice to meet a new soul.

Can’t say that part ‘ Higher Self’ is showing missing from my end, but maybe registering could do the trick for yah.
If i don’t log in i see the bottom part (section 9) or only half in the titlesection.
Maybe that could help.
Don’t really know if you mean the contence is missing or the title, need to check that for myself.
It’s bin a while when i read it myself.

Anyway, have a nice time here and hope to see your contributions sometime.

Light &love m8.

Greetz
Bigfeet E

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[Bigfeet E]

Hi Shylo,

Not that many replies here, so let me be the first.
It’s a bit late, but better late then never, no ? haha
Holiday season is something i don’t know as it’s a postmans bussiyest time of the year.
Hard labor in bad weatherconditions is my newyearspresent .

Januari the first is the only day off we get, so as usual i spend it in well deserved quit recuperationtime ( 😕 is that spelled right ?)
Also i’m a bit of a loner with a phew dear friends wich are for real, and i’m very gratefull for that cuz that’s gold to me.
So as far from celebrating new year my memory has to go back for quit a long time.

My intention could be set in trying to improve my lifestyle & healthcondition.
Still fighting the chems has its price on that, aswell along with changes in our system due to earthchanges (?)
Especially this time of year when a natural clensingprocess is activated combined with ‘poisons from the sky’ it kinda takes its toll.

May i make a small question why, when i press active posts (wich is automaticly last 7 days) nothing appeared ?
I mean, i just posted yesterday twice and now they don’t show. Maybe a matter for you to look into.

Leaves me now only to say you look even more beautifull as you did the last time a saw your previous picture. 😀
And to wish you that what you’ve wished for yourselve to come tru, according with that what is provided to us by nature.

Light, truth & love
Bigfeet E

[Bigfeet E]

@ Zingdad,

I see your last post is dated from last summer, so maybe you don’t come around here anymore.
Anyway, i’m here to say, or better yet , sorry to announce that my translating work of your site has bin failing miserably.
I started off on the right foot and got very slowly tru your first section, spending my whole vacation on it.
After that i must admit i was dragging my hiels to get started again 😳 , mainly due to difficulties that reigned my life.
Then, december last year my PC was smashed by a virus i picked up from niburu.nl inserted by some lovely hackers resulting in a loss of my work.
This because i had to reinstall windows and allthough i started translating again, i really didn’t got that far.

I’m a bit torn between a decision if i take it on further, cause it seems not many people are interested, given the fact of the 3 reactions i recieved on the topic i made presenting the link to your nice work. On the other hand i’ve noticed people are not that quit unfamiliar with the english language over here.
We here english almost on a daily basis tru television & music, so people kinda grow up with it .
I mean, hell , i studied french for over 5 years way back in schooltime and it never stuck.
English came in more naturely , so thats why it is generally not that hard for us here to understand.
So now i’m wondering, is it worth the effort … kinda, not undermining the importance of your work offcourse !!!

Maybe i will still yet get a spur of commitment, but at this point … i’m not sure.
I hope you see my point.

Best regards,
BFE 😉

[Bigfeet E]

Hey Eva,

Nice to see you join this beautiful forum.
Much better choise then the ‘skepps’.
Your input here will have a bigger receptance in a more positive way.
Nothing more to say then … go girl & welcome.

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